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The snapshot, the moment in the past, caught with ...

2010-11-24T15:26:58.193-05:00

The snapshot, the moment in the past, caught with your words, and feelings - it's amazing. Thank you.

Oh Ellie, I'm in tears. I know those feelings...

2010-11-24T15:26:55.753-05:00

Oh Ellie, I'm in tears. I know those feelings far too well.

I just want to say that I'm sitting here on a ...

2010-03-27T10:03:30.691-04:00

I just want to say that I'm sitting here on a Saturday morning catching up with your words and I'm so grateful for them. For you. These snapshots remind me of the insanity I was experiencing even though, like I said last night, I like to pretend that my problem was very small. It was going to look exactly like yours...within weeks actually. I mean, of course, we're different. But I was headed toward putting my wine in the washer. Ryan had only confronted me once about the amount of liquor in a bottle and I experienced these exact panicked feelings while I thought something up quick quick quick. It's a skinny bottle, I don't know, you had some too, I don't think there was very much in there in the first place....He knew, but he allowed the lies to preserve himself, to protect both of us with codependency, and I know that he would have continued that. We would have become an even more ugly mess than we were. I need to remember that. (Sorry, just rambling and thinking out loud :)

Oh Ellie, I'm in tears. I know those feelings...

2010-03-22T09:05:40.995-04:00

Oh Ellie, I'm in tears. I know those feelings far too well.

Leslie - 7 days is HUGE. Good for you. Good for...

2010-03-21T16:10:11.749-04:00

Leslie - 7 days is HUGE. Good for you. Good for you for reaching inside yourself and finding the strength and hope to save yourself -- I think people who can stare down addiction are some of the bravest people out there. The nervousness and anxiety was a big part of my drinking, too. I thought I drank to make it better. Turned out that the drinking was making it SO much worse. It took some time for me to realize that - weeks, probably - but one day I realized I wasn't having that constant, chronic anxiety. Just the regular anxiety of life.

Keep talking - and thanks so much for your comment. I'm cheering you on like mad.

-Ellie

Ellie - I found your blog a week ago, which led me...

2010-03-21T15:46:29.657-04:00

Ellie - I found your blog a week ago, which led me to Crying Out Now and one week ago I wrote my husband a letter that if I continued drinking I was going to die. Today is the seventh day. There hasn't been a magical transformation, the same nervousness and anxiety that started me on the path to alcohol addiction are still with me, but each moment that passes I feel a little stronger. Knowing that I am not the only mommy in a pretty house with a nice husband, beautiful children, and a scary secret - knowing there is a sisterhood of women out there - is giving me strength. Thank you so much. In a way you helped save me, or gave me the hope and strength to save myself.

The snapshot, the moment in the past, caught with ...

2010-03-21T02:38:23.105-04:00

The snapshot, the moment in the past, caught with your words, and feelings - it's amazing. Thank you.

Wow Ellie. The way you capture your thoughts and w...

2010-03-21T01:16:15.494-04:00

Wow Ellie. The way you capture your thoughts and write them here is amazing. At just 20 days sober I feel like both an angel and devil on your shoulder through the conversations you had with your husband. I can completely relate to what you're feeling, but now I'm slowly starting to realize what he must have felt. Thank you for sharing these moments.

Thank you for your snapshots. They are so honest a...

2010-03-20T23:54:16.441-04:00

Thank you for your snapshots. They are so honest and brave.

Love,
Sadie