tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post6550915665655677228..comments2012-02-23T15:46:32.238-05:00One Crafty Mothernoreply@blogger.comBlogger26125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-15235585023910770272012-02-23T15:46:32.238-05:002012-02-23T15:46:32.238-05:00The humor part mattered to me, too and I&#39;m glad I chose the Boston hospital over the closer one where my primary care doc is. Every single person at the Boston hospital made things so much easier to deal with. Taking the T in...that was a pain and kind of a no-no, but such is life.Janethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09504992439212714138noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-63716346132636127302011-12-08T10:36:00.929-05:002011-12-08T10:36:00.929-05:00Ellie. Your posts are medicinal. I swear. I&#39;m crying about your story when I read each update but I leave feeling so inspired and present and hopeful and faithful and life-filled and all that stuff. You are such an incredible soul...so courageous, yep, so freakin&#39; smart and aware and I hope you feel that there are so many people walking this path with you near and far. I feel with you. I hope you feel it. So happy about that hair. I would feel the exact same way. But you&#39;re so truly beautiful through and through hair doesn&#39;t really make a difference but I&#39;m so damn happy for you. Yay Boston doctors!! <br />xoxoxo<br />LeeLeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03776097136945230489noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-88580690443117283302011-12-05T22:47:59.698-05:002011-12-05T22:47:59.698-05:00&quot;The human spirit is a wondrous thing.&quot;<br />Indeed it is...<br />hugs and prayers<br />xoShanonhttps://twitter.com/sharmstronoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-17693450864296710722011-12-05T09:30:04.801-05:002011-12-05T09:30:04.801-05:00Such good news! YAY for hair! (because you really do have great hair.)<br /><br />hugs!!Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13478272444205279342noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-51721356367451121232011-12-04T17:02:10.817-05:002011-12-04T17:02:10.817-05:00Great post Ellie. I&#39;m so happy it didn&#39;t spread to your lungs. You&#39;re in my thoughts and prayers.<br /><br />LibbyAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-37416102907249500872011-12-04T10:23:15.188-05:002011-12-04T10:23:15.188-05:00Wow. Just ... wow. So raw, so naked, so beautiful. Thank you for sharing your experience honestly - throughout - without sugar-coating.<br /><br />I&#39;m inclined to think that the inner healing process you have been going through since you got into recovery has prepared you for the ordeal you are now facing. Imagine trying to deal with this while you were still in addiction. Indeed, there is much for which to be grateful. <br /><br />Your story has inspired me, and continues to do so. I marvel at your depth of peace - and know that it is because you have tapped into a power greater than yourself. That power is the anchor. <br /><br />Real healing flows from the inside out.<br />Blessing and complete healing be yours!Judy (Lazarus)http://www.blogger.com/profile/04849635419664832946noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-7977097217476187682011-12-03T18:50:36.322-05:002011-12-03T18:50:36.322-05:00I lost my hair, which was almost worse than losing my breast.<br /><br />No matter what you decide, you will be fine.pattihttp://pattiwag.wordpress.com/noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-70855970907354415702011-12-03T18:30:02.064-05:002011-12-03T18:30:02.064-05:00You do the best you can with the information given to you, and check all avenues. God bless.<br />LuAnnAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-70201391308678253372011-12-03T12:57:09.461-05:002011-12-03T12:57:09.461-05:00I once heard that while there is often no way to know that we have made the &quot;right&quot; decision, we can always make decisions in the right way: learning all we can, praying over it, bouncing the matter off of people we trust, people who have wisdom, knowledge, experience ... then, finally, discerning how we feel before choosing.<br /><br />Glad you got the second opinion! Glad for the hope and confidence this decision gives you for going forward. It may well make all the difference down the road, too. Hang in there, Ellie!Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04258308896097417558noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-53109460629357887112011-12-03T09:27:43.657-05:002011-12-03T09:27:43.657-05:00Oh Ellie, must you be so amazingly fabulous and wonderful? Hang in there for the tough moments and savor the sweet ones (I know you already are - but what else am I to say?) <br />Absolutely the right decision to head to the city. No doubt. Worth every moment in traffic, every penny of gas, and every irritating parking situation - I promise. Love, Love, Love to you.Melissahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17983723569464903989noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-74919743594966455262011-12-03T01:25:41.919-05:002011-12-03T01:25:41.919-05:00I feel guilty because my case was so different than yours... My diagnosis was so different, so it feels like I&#39;m trespassing on your experience to say this... But this resonates so much. The stretching that happens. The need to have not just a good doctor but a human doctor. The empowerment of looking beyond the care right in front of me and giving myself all the options I could and then finding a plan that I knew was the best. Praying for you here and I&#39;m so glad you&#39;ve found doctors that know the stuff they need to know to treat this with a path that will be less burdensome.Valhttp://digtoesin.wordpress.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-90076947021060454832011-12-02T23:44:04.805-05:002011-12-02T23:44:04.805-05:00You will never know me, I think about you all the time. This is a privilege to witness. Praying for you. Xofiona.younghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05986658733980602854noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-65264094761706084182011-12-02T23:38:02.873-05:002011-12-02T23:38:02.873-05:00Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers...<br /><br />Am happy to read in this update that it is treatable and the treatment is near to you, not thousands of mile and far far away.<br />Peace and love,<br />Siggi in Downeast Mainesiggiofmainehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12619003987159808104noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-57534139333736620442011-12-02T22:58:42.674-05:002011-12-02T22:58:42.674-05:00i love the honesty and perspective and self awareness you have in this post. Thank you so much for inviting us along this journey with you. I think many of us will grow in new ways as well. Stretching our hearts and minds and compassion in different ways.Jennahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06666555088992266185noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-22968935285741033432011-12-02T21:52:33.593-05:002011-12-02T21:52:33.593-05:00Oh man. So sorry about your news, so glad you got a second opinion. Fingers crossed and thinking of you.Tzipporahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08807511259582331073noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-63494037392189100082011-12-02T21:03:26.814-05:002011-12-02T21:03:26.814-05:00I am so incredibly grateful for this good news on your chest scan! You just blow me away with your guts about everything in life and you inspire me in my own walk toward sobriety. Keep it up CHICK! You rock!!!!!!!!!!!atomic mommahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09241909236945651676noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-23377070672547282722011-12-02T20:48:45.623-05:002011-12-02T20:48:45.623-05:00So happy to hear that good news has come with second opinions. Those highs and lows will always be hard to take and hard to get out of. So wonderful to hear that you do have good things in your life to hold on to and that you are okay.<br /><br />Take car and stay strong.<br /><br />NoelAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-81197163116500798232011-12-02T19:22:33.875-05:002011-12-02T19:22:33.875-05:00So happy for the good news. That you are finding highs at all is a testament to your character. The first opinion my husband had involved removing all the lymph nodes from his face, but the second opinion was much less intrusive and only required lymph nodes from his neck to be removed. Whew, I feel your deep sigh.Brigidhttp://www.brigidday.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-82997446652416610062011-12-02T19:02:50.825-05:002011-12-02T19:02:50.825-05:00Shit, Ellie. Everytime I read your posts the last few days, I get all weepy. It&#39;s all kinds of weepy: Unfairness, hope, inspiration, you name it. You fill up my heart with the good stuff. Thank you for continuing to keep us posted. I think of you so much of the time, it would probably give you pause. ; ) I love you and am so gratified by the hopeful news you continue to receive. I know it is a long road, but it will be filled with humor and hope, as well as the tough stuff. I love you to pieces, beautiful soul. xoxoLisa H.noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-40468610338689020042011-12-02T18:40:42.940-05:002011-12-02T18:40:42.940-05:00I can feel the bravery radiating off the words on the page, and I almost feel like I am gaining strength just reading them and absorbing them from you. Wow, what a woman you are. Praying for you as you take each step on this journey.Robinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02930533303856458374noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-31902173128834620662011-12-02T18:34:37.788-05:002011-12-02T18:34:37.788-05:00Ellie,<br /><br />Four weeks ago my best friend died suddenly at age 40. When I read your recent posts, I am struck by how similar the grieving/adapting process has been. I struggle to find the good things about it, but when I do see them, I am so struck by them that I am immobilized. This post gives me something like hope that I can grow from this, even though right now it seems inconceivable.Kim Tracy Princehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07756464765768499385noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-61460612770475556302011-12-02T17:22:57.246-05:002011-12-02T17:22:57.246-05:00I am happy to hear that you are okay. I know that I want you to be okay, and I think you will be okay, but it&#39;s nice to hear it from you as well!<br /><br />I didn&#39;t lose my hair, although it did thin. I did not suffer much sickness or fatigue (the meds helped to take care of that), but I do not envy you the feeding tube. I&#39;m so glad that the second opinion recommended that you wait until midway to have that put in.Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14723126856562366307noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-50849905100972163292011-12-02T17:16:29.839-05:002011-12-02T17:16:29.839-05:00Yay that it&#39;s contained! And Yay! that you found a wonderful team of nurses and docs!<br /><br />Thinking of you, Ellie.JCnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-67488242501720241092011-12-02T17:13:24.805-05:002011-12-02T17:13:24.805-05:00I&#39;m so relieved by this second opinion, I&#39;m a little overcome. I don&#39;t know if you realize how much you&#39;ve been on my mind lately.<br /><br />Love you.Ann Imighttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01383249597505013239noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2720339929351469448.post-51485590989071740242011-12-02T17:12:44.128-05:002011-12-02T17:12:44.128-05:00Awesome. Such good stuff here, Ellie. xoxo@maggiedammithttp://maggieschutz.comnoreply@blogger.com