Thursday, February 6, 2014

Philip Seymour Hoffman: How COULD he?

I was scrolling mindlessly through my Facebook feed, the day the news broke, and I saw someone post "RIP Philip Seymour Hoffman. So sad."

My response was visceral and possessive:  WHAT? I thought.  MY Philip Seymour Hoffman?

I have no claim to him, of course. I never met him or even caught a glimpse of him in person.  It is a testimony to his strength as an actor that I felt such a connection with him.  His achingly beautiful performances, where he so often portrayed the dichotomies that lie within us all - sinner and saint, courageous and vulnerable - touched us all.

It is no surprise that he was such a talented character actor.  A hallmark of all addicts is that we're great chameleons.

His death effects me on another level, as someone who had recovery - good recovery - and then relapsed. It is hard to respond to the question how could he? because it is a question I ask myself, too.  How could I? With everything I know about addiction, with all the blessings in my life:  how could I? 

Let's start by talking about you for a moment.

Think back on resolutions you have made to yourself.  Perhaps to lose weight? Eat healthier?  Exercise three times a week?  All of the above?

You know, intellectually, that your life will improve if you stick to your plan. You come out of the gate going gangbusters.  It isn't hard to stick to your plan, because the benefits are immediate - hey! I have more energy! I'm sleeping better!  I can button these jeans!  My cholesterol went down! 

You are a disciplined, intelligent person, and you don't like to be bested by anything, so you stick with this plan.  For months.  You do this until the point where getting up in the morning and going to the gym is second nature. You reach for the carrot sticks instead of the cake without even thinking.   Friends compliment you on how good you look/feel.  The rewards for this healthier lifestyle make it easy to stick with it.

Over time, this healthier you is just, well, you.

One day you have an early morning meeting and you can't go to the gym. You haven't been scheduling early morning meetings, because it's your gym time, but hey, just this once won't matter. Things are nuts at work. The next day you decide you'll work out in the evenings because you got so much done at work early in the morning.  Except when you get home that night you're tired and don't go.  The next night there is a traffic jam and you get home too late to work out.

A few days, or maybe even weeks, later you skip your healthy home-brought salad and go out to lunch with co-workers.  While you're out at lunch, nibbling french fries, you think:  I should do this more often. It's important to socialize with work people. 

After a while, you're only bringing your healthy lunch once or twice a week, and you're only working out occasionally.  But you still feel good. Your clothes still fit.  You tell yourself you will amp up the workouts if your pants get tight.

One day you can't fit comfortably into your suit, so you head out and buy one - just one! - work outfit.  Just until you can take off the few extra pounds.

Weeks later you are mindlessly digging through your closet for your old two-sizes-bigger clothes.  It's just that you have been so busy.  You know what you need to do, and you've done it before, so you'll get back into shape when things calm down.  It's not like you're going to stay this weight.

Eventually you're not only back to your former weight, you're heavier.  How did this happen? Things were going so well!  You feel ashamed.  You feel like a failure. You feel so despondent.  Dieting doesn't work for me, you think.

Does any of this sound familiar?

What is so hard to see, in these situations, is that you didn't just end up heavy.  It all started the day you skipped your morning workout for what seemed like a perfectly good reason: work needed you.

It's death by a thousand paper cuts. It's a slow, almost invisible slide into old behaviors.

Recovering addicts need constant vigilance to stay sober. It's hard at first - everything (and I mean everything) feels different. Putting recovery before everything else is hard, counter-intuitive, because you are accustomed to letting the hectic pace of life to put the healthier, non-drinking you, last.

Eventually, though, with daily discipline, structure and support, being sober becomes second nature. You feel so good that you don't ever, ever want to go back to that dark, shameful, secretive place.

Someone who has worked hard to get fit doesn't want to go back to being heavy, either. But still it happens to almost all of us who try to lose weight. Very few of us do it once and keep fit for a lifetime.

With recovery it isn't a matter of what we want, either.  We all want to stay sober, but addiction is a brain disease, and what we want doesn't hold all the cards.

Put very simply - back when we (meaning addicts/alcoholics) first used alcohol or drugs, we triggered something in the primitive part of our brain - the part that governs survival instincts like shelter, reproduction, food, thirst.  Our addiction takes root in this primitive part of our brain, snuggled up next to the things we need to survive.  With time, as the addiction grows, our brain puts drinking first.  It moves up the ladder of needs - starting as an emotional addiction and ending as a physical one - and eventually it trumps everything. Active alcoholics will choose alcohol over food and hydration.

Their brain is literally telling them:  you need this to survive.

Additionally, the neocortex, the part of the brain responsible for rational thought, and the amygdala, which controls emotional processing, get hijacked.  The site youthcomm.org, which targets teens, explains it simply:
"...drugs and alcohol also affect a part of your brain called the neocortex that keeps you from doing dangerous things. Ira Moses, Ph.D., who used to run a drug abuse program, calls the neocortex “the brain’s brakes—it controls most of the brain’s functions.” The neocortex helps us think through consequences of our behavior, consider risks, and stop us from doing things that might feel good in the short run, but harm us or the ones we love in the long run. This part of the brain basically gets turned off by drugs and alcohol."
Once activated by drugs or alcohol, in an addict's brain the neocortex hands the reins over to the lizard/primitive brain, which is thinking:  alcohol first. drugs first.  The symptoms of addiction are behavioral, because the rational part of the brain isn't functioning.  This is why people around active alcoholics are astounded by the insane behavior we do when we're drinking. Because it is, quite literally, insane.  Our neocortex is out of the picture.

So, back to the original question:  how COULD Philip Seymour Hoffman relapse?  With all he had going for him?  With all that sobriety?

The same way I did.

There is no cure for addiction, but it can be treated; it can go into remission.  Treatment involves a daily regimented program of recovery of rigorous honesty, communicating with fellow addicts/alcoholics in recovery, self-care and - for many of us in recovery - spirituality.  It involves a daily surrender to the fact that we are powerless over our disease and all its manifestations.

Here's what I mean by that:  my relapse didn't start when I drank. It started about a year and a half before when, coming out of cancer treatments, I had drifted away from active recovery.  I stopped engaging in the daily self-care regime that treated my alcoholism on a daily basis:  meetings, yoga, exercise, asking for help, prayer.

I substituted my recovery for what looked and felt like healthy behavior -particularly in the crazy pace of today's world - workaholism.

Just like the ill-fated dieter in the example above, it was a long slow slide towards a drink.  Without my knowledge or permission, my disease was ramping up, because I wasn't tending to it on a daily basis.

I don't remember actually drinking.  I was in an emotional blackout, I guess.  I was so far away from the healthy behaviors that kept my recovery alive that my disease took over, and I was without a single tool to resist it.

So where does personal responsibility factor in?  Especially as it pertains to relapse?

This is a dicey subject, so I offer here only my personal thoughts on the matter.

I view my alcoholism like I do my cancer:  a chronic, life-long and potentially fatal condition.  I didn't choose to have either one.

Neither one is my fault, but my recovery in both is my responsibility.

In my mind, my relapse is as if I found something troubling- perhaps a lump in my neck (where I had cancer before) - and I decided (consciously or unconsciously) that it was probably nothing and didn't see a doctor. Then, months later, I find out my cancer is back and it has spread.

The moment of responsibility lies with my knowledge that I am a cancer patient in remission and I can't afford not to have something checked out.

But, particularly when dealing with hard or scary things - it's human nature to dumb it down, file it away somewhere convenient or easy, or simply procrastinate.  Like our dieter.

With addiction, just like with cancer, we can't afford to file it away, though.  Once we have surrendered and know we are an alcoholic/addict, it is our responsibility to maintain that recovery.

BUT. Relapse happens. It happens with cancer. It happens with diets. It happens with addiction.  For all the reasons I described, alcoholics find themselves with a drink in their hand and no tools to resist.  Knowing alcohol is bad for you, that it could kill you in the end, doesn't factor in.  That bus left the station ages ago, when the first of the thousand paper cuts slid across your skin, seemingly without much impact.

When I am not active in a program of recovery, my addiction is untreated.

It is my responsibility to stay active in recovery.  I drifted away from it. I relapsed.

It is not a moral failing. It is my disease coming out of remission.  But, unlike cancer, I can choose to treat it on a daily basis and stay in recovery.  Cancer treatments cannot promise such a hopeful outcome. Hopefully I will be able to treat my addiction, daily, for the rest of my life.  I know this is confusing to people not in the world of addiction:  if you can choose it every day .. why don't you DO that every day?  I will politely refer back to the dieter.

Because we're also human.  And brains - all brains - are adept at side-stepping scary or unpleasant things.

So let's not wring our hands and ask why. Or how could he?  Philip Seymour Hoffman died because of his disease, not because he was weak, or willfully self-destructive or morally unfit. The argument "well, one doesn't just find oneself with a needle in one's arm" infuriates me. Because addicts do. Addicts who are not working a program of recovery find themselves with a needle in their arm and are just as baffled and saddened about it as those who love them. And once the drug is in their system, the sober person is just gone. And they can't get back without help.

And far too many addicts/alcoholics don't ask for help, because of the damn stigma.  Far too many addicts/alcoholics don't reach for a chance at recovery because they are too afraid of society's reaction to what they, too, perceive as a personal weakness or failing.

Lets band together to beat down the stigma of addiction that keeps alcoholics and addicts stuck in their fear of being judged.

I long for the day when addiction is viewed like cancer - without stigma and with the urgency of all potentially fatal conditions.

RIP, Philip.  May your tragic death in the spotlight help to bring more understanding to the disease of addiction.

62 comments:

  1. This is fantastic, Elle - "It's death by a thousand paper cuts. It's a slow, almost invisible slide into old behaviors."

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    1. Thank you, my friend. For this comment and for all you do! -xo

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  2. Well done, my friend.

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  3. I haven't commented on your blog in ages, but couldn't pass up the chance to congratulate you on hitting this one out of the park! I hope this post goes viral. Thank you, Ellie. What a phenomenal way to make this reality hit home to all of us. Well done.

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    1. Thanks for coming out of hiding to offer your support! :) I really, really appreciate it!!

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  4. How beautifully you put this into words. I am grateful to you for all you do in your recovery to help others and wish you nothing but best wishes and success in your own journey. I cannot tell you how much the 'Bubble Hour' and your blog have helped me on my path (almost 1 year now). I couldn't have done it without some of the resources that are available to me as a direct result of your journey and kindness. Almost everyone I have met on my journey has too, been touched by the work you do and the Bubble Hour.
    Your life touches so many. I am rooting for you and you should be so proud of the person that you are. I admire you so much.

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    1. Thank you so much. I really appreciate you taking the time to say TBH and this blog have helped you. We are all in this together! Onward! -xo

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  6. Well said, Ellie. Thank you! I hope this helps a lot of people "get it".

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    1. Me too! It's such a nuanced, complicated issue. I don't know that anyone has ever really figured out a way to explain it. But if we keep on trying, maybe we'll get there! :)

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  7. Did you really have zero inkling over the time you stopped doing the things that helped you that it might be a bad idea? Was there not some tiny flicker in your brain that knew you were heading back down the wrong path? I mean a person with cancer who decides to leave it untreated or ignore it knows they are. A dieter who is slacking off knows they are, even if they try to deny it and claim they are "so busy" and can't go to the gym.

    Also, if indeed addicts don't know when they are relapsing, what does society's supposed opinion of them matter? If they have no tools to help themselves and don't know they are relapsing, how can they ask for help (which is a tool.)

    I ask these questions sincerely, because this is honestly something I struggle with. Even more so when reading the article by Alan Sorkin about how PSH once said that if one of them died from an overdose, it would stop 10 other deaths from happening because addicts would be scared straight. So I struggle to see how addicts are powerless and have no control over their behaviors, unless they get really scared - then they do.

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    1. I am SO GLAD you asked this question, because this kind of dialogue is critical if we're to move forward in educating people about addiction. So thank you.

      Addicts WHO ARE NOT IN A PROGRAM OF RECOVERY (whatever program that may be) are often not aware that they are emotionally heading toward a relapse. Even though I had years of recovery, I hadn't been active in my OWN program of recovery for a year and a half when I relapsed (very active in recovery in general, interestingly, which I learned the hard way isn't at all the same as working my own program).

      There was a flicker in my brain that said "hm, Ellie, you haven't been to yoga, or a meeting, etc. in a while, is that a bad thing?" But then - because I wasn't talking to other recovery addicts about my OWN recovery, my brain said, "Don't worry about it - you're very active in recovery advocacy! You're immersed in this stuff!". Sooo -my own brain was engaging in illogical thinking without the benefit of another person in recovery's insight. The disease is a mental one .. it tells me I'm fine when I'm not. Even as a cancer patient (in remission) I can have the same thing happened (otherwise known as denial)... where I think "I don't have to have a checkup! I feel fine!". BUT - the doctor's office calls me and tells me that it's dangerous for me to go, so I go. If I had been connected to the recovery community they would have been keeping tabs on me, letting me know I was drifting away from my own recovery.

      Society's opinion matters when (if) and addict decides to get help - either voluntarily or because of pressure from loved ones. The stigma is so strong -esp for women - that they try everything they can to fight it on their own, they are so fearful of what will be said if they admit they are an alcoholic. When it comes to relapse - the stigma is there, too, because of the "you should have known better" voices that are in their own head (let alone the heads of others).

      Basically, until the stigma is reduced/eliminated, even alcoholics who aren't in denial (and who knows ... perhaps PSH wasn't in denial but was too scared to get the help he needed because he felt like a failure?) are reluctant to seek treatment.

      This is SUCH a complex issue and so hard to describe. I posted your comment as a discussion thread on my FB page, hoping others will (respectfully) chime in. The link to my FB page is here: https://www.facebook.com/pages/One-Crafty-Mother/101829259854250

      Thank you again for asking the hard questions. The most important thing is to keep this discussion going!!

      -Ellie

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  8. You nailed every single angle of addiction here, thank you for composing this piece..I loved reading it. <3

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  9. I am amazed at how eloquently you wrote this...and with such clarity. I found myself emotional just reading it. Thank you....and I may have to refer to this when I get asked questions about my disease. I have a hard time explaining...yet I know what it is I am trying to say. And what you have written is spot on.

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  10. It's been hard for me to understand relapse, even though I'm an alcoholic myself. I feel so solid in my sobriety that I can't imagine it could happen to me, but of course it could, "by a slow, almost invisible slide." It's stories like yours, and tragedies like Philip Seymour Hoffman's death, that remind me to stay ever-ever vigilant and always put my recovery first. Thank you!

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  11. Wow, I do not suffer from addiction, thankfully, but this story is tur first time I have been able to even begin to understand it. I still cant say I fully understand it. Hopefully I never will because that would mean I' m living it. I am so glad I stumbled across this post. I will forever see addicts in a different (better) light.

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  12. Thank you for this. It is so helpful to read your take on addiction and the part about our brains and what happens in addiction. I agree, we must do more to remove the stigma so people can step into recovery more readily.

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  13. Ellie, thank you for being so very brave by posting this article! I don't really know if it is possible for non-addicts to ever really "get it", but this post does a brilliant job of laying out both the science and the human nature aspect of addiction and relapse. It has made me so sad to read all of the judgement and hateful comments about his death, I wonder where the compassion is, and yet I guess until you have walked in someone else's shoes, you just cannot know what it is like. And I am thrilled that you are back. Bravo to you!

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  14. I am starting to explore my need for help with addiction. Reading your experiences are helping me figure out where I am and where I want to be. Thank you!

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  15. very interesting but most of the ones who call it a disease are the addicts. >>>>>> and I understand because 2 people very close to me are addicts and

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  16. Wow. Is all I can say.

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  18. Ellie, you so clearly and eloquently expressed and illustrated relapse. Regarding the "can't you see it coming" discussion...other than the occassional blatant relapse "trigger" like break-ups, getting fired, etc., there are a hundred little tiny triggers (thus...H.A.L.T... being too hungry, angry, lonely, tired...would be examples of more subtle triggers). I believe those triggers become cumulative, and the distance from the last of many tiny triggers not dealt with to the next drink/drug/addictive behavior is measured in millimeters. One single moment of vulnerability and poor impulse control. And I think that usually that next drink/drug/behavior is often rationalized with the delusion that we will just this once be able to control it. Working a program reminds me of those irritating public bathroom sinks that require you to hold the faucet on to get the water to flow, and as soon as you take your hand off the faucet, the water stops (no matter how long you've held it on). Recovery is a daily lifetime maintenance. Addiction is indeed that powerful. It takes effort, not auto-pilot. But it's always worth it. Thanks Ellie for such an insightful reflection

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  19. I love to read your thoughts. You are so smart, so insightful. I really think the typical recovery model is not everyone's cup of tea. I urge you to check out a program like Rational Recovery. Of course we have control over this! We don't have to spend the rest of our lives looking over our shoulders at Addiction chasing us with a butterfly net! I know I won't drink ever again, just as I know that I wouldn't kick a puppy. (As someone on WFS put it.) Now, do I have to be careful that I don't fall into other negative behaviors? Absolutely. I drank for a reason. To say I was drinking because I was an alcoholic (this whole model is hopelessly outdated, why on earth do recovery centers still use it???) is so simplistic. I drank because I was trying to fit in, later to quell my anxiety, later to deaden the pain of dog rescue. It got away from me because I have a strong genetic predisposition to be addicted to alcohol. To me, that makes so much more sense than "moral failings" or other nonsense. My moral failing is that I feel the world too much!

    Jim Carrey said of Hoffman, "For the most sensitive among us, the noise is too much." God, that resonated with me so strongly. You are obviously very smart, you are thoughtful and I bet my mortgage that you are as sensitive as I am. I read people, I read their moods, their energy. These things make me a great teacher and mother and a tortured human being. I, too, busied myself to distraction when I quit drinking. Lexapro helped for a few years. Now, unmedicated, I sometimes carry the pain of the world in my heart. My therapist, who is really a spiritual,guide, tells me that this is my Nature. I have to honor it, and feel it. But I'm 3 1/2 years sober. I'm ready. You may have a similar path. But first, know that you will never drink again. You can cry, you can scream, you can sing in the store and embarrass your kids, you can hit a pillow, hang onto a tree and sob, but don't drink. Not an option.

    And two authors I think you will like, quite different than the typical recovery books, are Thomas More (Dark Nights of the Soul) and anything by John o'Donohue. The world is a terribly painful place with great beauty in it. Seeing the Beauty helps me deal with the pain.

    And check out WFS.

    Peace,
    Nancy

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  20. Thanks for this post on relapse. I "went out" after 6 years of sobriety having become comfortable in a life style that no longer included meetings or any other deliberate effort to maintain my sobriety. After 3 years of drinking that has become progressively worse and a weight gain of 10 pounds I am 3 days sober. I live in Germany now where drinking is the

    national past-time and it is difficult to find AA meetings close by. I am trying to get sober via the blog route and I am amazed at all that is available. Thanks so much for your articulate, sensitive description of relapse! And thanks for making available to me this first step back into the recovery community. I have tried a few times, but the isolation makes it all too easy to duck back into my addition, thinking no one needs to know.

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  21. i comment that you suck. It's so clear when an addict is "pretending" to recover when they make everything, EVERYTHING, even the death of a celebrity who never knew or cared about you about themselves. You are so talented and capable of so much and you waste it on your shitty narcissism. I don't think for one second that I am any better than you but I call bullshit when I see it. Focus outward Elly. See ANYONE or ANYTHING that deserves or needs more help than you and you might have half a chance. Otherwise? Get the fuck over yourself. You don't have to, but right now, YOU SUCK.

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    1. Chill, bro... (or sister!) Perhaps you could share the link to the blog and website and programs you are doing to reach out to those still struggling, so we can see how it's supposed to be done. If you really care to provide some critical feedback, perhaps beginning with "you suck" is not the most creative and/or effective form of communicating. Listen, "Unknown," YOU are capable of so much more... there's a heart in there, I can sense it, in spite of your big show... you can do better! I'm sure of it.

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    2. Thank you, Steve. I wasn't going to dignify that with a response and I appreciate you doing so with such grace. :). -xo

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  22. So happy to see you post even a comment! Miss you terribly, Ellie! Been following you for years. Felt like you were my friend, but I realize it only goes one way -- I love you, but you don't even know me! I think if you did know me though, we would be friends -- because I can't believe how much your words resonate with me (over and over again). I know this is selfish -- but please keep posting!

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  23. I've avoided posts about Phil for a while. It got so ugly, and it shows how many people are not introspective enough to recognize the areas of addiction in their own lives, or in the lives of those they love. This post can hopefully help those who just can't imagine (and thankfully haven't experienced) addiction to understand.

    A lovely post, as always.

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  24. Addiction is complicated. Stuart A. Kaplowitz, MFT

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    I am Mrs ANDERSON ANN from USA, i want to share a testimony of my life to every one. i was married to my husband Barry Morgan, i love him so much we have been married for 5 years now with two kids. when he went for a vacation to France he meant a lady called Clara who en charm him with his beauty, he told me that he is no longer interested in the marriage any more. i was so confuse and seeking for help, i don't know what to do until I met my friend Miss Rose and told her about my problem. she told me not to worry about it that she had a similar problem before and introduce me to a man called Dr Iyayi. who cast a spell on her ex and bring him back to her after 3days. Miss Rose ask me to contact Dr Iyayi. I contacted him to help me bring back my husband and he ask me not to worry about it that the gods of his fore-fathers will fight for me. He told me by three days he will re-unite me and my husband together. After three day my husband called and told me he is coming back to sought out things with me, I was surprise when I saw him and he started crying for forgiveness and that he never knew what came upon him that he will never leave me again or the kids.it was the spell that was casted on him that was working on him. Right now I am the happiest woman on earth for what this great spell caster did for me and my husband, you can contact Dr.Iyayi on any problem in this world, he is very nice, here is his contact driyayilovespellhome@gmail.com. or contact him through his website address: http://driyayilovespellhome.webs.com You can also contact him through his mobile: +2347032617285. He is the best spell caster.

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  27. Dr. Olorun Oduduwa I love to be on your testimonial page to spread my happiness. Your hard work and effort is greatly appreciated especially from me. My boy-friend is back home. We are back together. He pick me up from my station today. I haven't saw him in 6 month. I wasted so much time with other spell casters and should have stuck with you originally. You are a truly gifted spell caster and I just wanted to take the time to show how you and tell the world how grateful I am"thanks to Dr. Olorun, contact him if need his help on how to bring back your lost husband or boyfriend to your heart again on; Olorunoduduwaspiritualtemple@gmail.com

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  28. Getting my Ex back was something that i couldn’t imagine will be so easy. I’ve known Cynthia for years, When we finally got together, things were so weird so we broke up in January 2008 In June 2010, we got back together and we were together until march 2013 of which she told me she was not interested in the relationship again, for a reason she didn’t say, and which i don't know. During that time my mind was completely at a state of unrest, I wasn’t eating, neither was i sleeping, talking to anyone was even more difficult, I cried, I was so depressed and stressed out that I was scared and was even planning to end it all but a friend of mine named Alex Richard who passed through same situation advised me to contact Dr. lucas to help me because I Love and care about her so much and I just want us to be together again, i contacted him although i never used to believe in spell casting but i gave it a try and and he cast the spell and to my greatest surprise everything was alright, Cynthia called me and started begging for all she has caused me. It made a positive result and today we are happily married and blessed with two wonderful kids. To you all out there faced with the same problem or similar to this, you can contact Dr. lucas on his email address on dr.lucaspellhome01@outlook.com because he will help you. Once again thank you Dr. lucas. for bringing back my love. Thank you. my name is Jerry Jackson from UK

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  29. my name is Tasha , from the united state
    of America . i want to share this wonderful
    testimony , to the people who are in the
    same problem that i was before i meant
    dr.olokun. i was living with HIV for the
    past 1 year, just last month as i went to the internet , i saw a testimony no how some one hiv/aid was cure,
    and i decided to also email and tell him
    about my problem, and as i did that he told
    me to send him some details which i did, and
    then he told me to wait for some time , and
    after one week he told me to go for another
    HIV test, which i did, and to my greatest
    suppress i was confirmed negative. all
    thanks be to dr.olokun, and if you know
    that you are in this problem email him now
    on drolokuntemple@gmail.com and i strongly
    believe that he will help you just as he did
    mine.

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  30. Am Bida Stacey by name My ex-boyfriend dumped me 6 months ago after I accused him of seeing someone else and insulting him. I want him back in my life but he refuse to have any contact with me.I was so confuse and don't know what to do,
    a friend of mine introduce me to the Dr Harrison by giving me his email, i never believed until
    I contact him and explain my problem to him and he cast a spell for me and assure me of 3 days that my ex will return
    to me and to my greatest surprise the third day my ex came knocking on my door and beg for forgiveness. for more information contact me on bidastacey@gmail.com I am so happy that my love is back again and not only that,we got MARRIED.all thanks to Dr Harrison. If you have a similar problem please contact him on SACREDSPELLTEMPLE@HOTMAIL.COM

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  31. I am joes candra, I promise to share this testimony all over the world once my boyfriend return back to me, and today with all due respect i want to thank DR.OSAUYI for bringing joy and happiness to my relationship and my family. I want to inform you all that there is a spell caster that is real and genuine. I never believed in any of these things until i loosed my boyfriend, I required help until i found a grate spell caster, And he cast a love spell for me, and he assured me that I will get my boyfriend back in two days after the spell has been cast. Three days later, my phone rang, and so shockingly, it was my boyfriend who has not called me for past 6 years now, and made an apology for the heart break, and told me that he is ready to be my back bone till the rest of his life with me. DR.OSAUYI released him up to know how much i loved and wanted him. And opened his eyes to picture how much we have share together. As I`m writing this testimony right now I`m the most happiest girl on earth and me and my boyfriend is living a happy life and our love is now stronger than how it were even before our break up. So that`s why I promised to share my testimony all over the universe.All thanks goes to DR.OSAUYI for the excessive work that he has done for me. Below is the email address in any situation you are undergoing a heart break, and I assure you that as he has done mine for me, he will definitely help you too. OSAUYILOVESPELL@GMAIL.COM that is his email address bye...

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  32. I am joes candra, I promise to share this testimony all over the world once my boyfriend return back to me, and today with all due respect i want to thank DR.OSAUYI for bringing joy and happiness to my relationship and my family. I want to inform you all that there is a spell caster that is real and genuine. I never believed in any of these things until i loosed my boyfriend, I required help until i found a grate spell caster, And he cast a love spell for me, and he assured me that I will get my boyfriend back in two days after the spell has been cast. Three days later, my phone rang, and so shockingly, it was my boyfriend who has not called me for past 6 years now, and made an apology for the heart break, and told me that he is ready to be my back bone till the rest of his life with me. DR.OSAUYI released him up to know how much i loved and wanted him. And opened his eyes to picture how much we have share together. As I`m writing this testimony right now I`m the most happiest girl on earth and me and my boyfriend is living a happy life and our love is now stronger than how it were even before our break up. So that`s why I promised to share my testimony all over the universe.All thanks goes to DR.OSAUYI for the excessive work that he has done for me. Below is the email address in any situation you are undergoing a heart break, and I assure you that as he has done mine for me, he will definitely help you too. OSAUYILOVESPELL@GMAIL.COM that is his email address bye... ..

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  33. I am joes candra, I promise to share this testimony all over the world once my boyfriend return back to me, and today with all due respect i want to thank DR.OSAUYI for bringing joy and happiness to my relationship and my family. I want to inform you all that there is a spell caster that is real and genuine. I never believed in any of these things until i loosed my boyfriend, I required help until i found a grate spell caster, And he cast a love spell for me, and he assured me that I will get my boyfriend back in two days after the spell has been cast. Three days later, my phone rang, and so shockingly, it was my boyfriend who has not called me for past 6 years now, and made an apology for the heart break, and told me that he is ready to be my back bone till the rest of his life with me. DR.OSAUYI released him up to know how much i loved and wanted him. And opened his eyes to picture how much we have share together. As I`m writing this testimony right now I`m the most happiest girl on earth and me and my boyfriend is living a happy life and our love is now stronger than how it were even before our break up. So that`s why I promised to share my testimony all over the universe.All thanks goes to DR.OSAUYI for the excessive work that he has done for me. Below is the email address in any situation you are undergoing a heart break, and I assure you that as he has done mine for me, he will definitely help you too. OSAUYILOVESPELL@GMAIL.COM that is his email address bye...

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  34. I am joes candra, I promise to share this testimony all over the world once my boyfriend return back to me, and today with all due respect i want to thank DR.OSAUYI for bringing joy and happiness to my relationship and my family. I want to inform you all that there is a spell caster that is real and genuine. I never believed in any of these things until i loosed my boyfriend, I required help until i found a grate spell caster, And he cast a love spell for me, and he assured me that I will get my boyfriend back in two days after the spell has been cast. Three days later, my phone rang, and so shockingly, it was my boyfriend who has not called me for past 6 years now, and made an apology for the heart break, and told me that he is ready to be my back bone till the rest of his life with me. DR.OSAUYI released him up to know how much i loved and wanted him. And opened his eyes to picture how much we have share together. As I`m writing this testimony right now I`m the most happiest girl on earth and me and my boyfriend is living a happy life and our love is now stronger than how it were even before our break up. So that`s why I promised to share my testimony all over the universe.All thanks goes to DR.OSAUYI for the excessive work that he has done for me. Below is the email address in any situation you are undergoing a heart break, and I assure you that as he has done mine for me, he will definitely help you too. OSAUYILOVESPELL@GMAIL.COM that is his email address bye...

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  35. GREAT FATHER



    HOW DR.ORIOMON HELP ME BRING BACK MY EX HUSBAND BACK TO ME


    hello to the every one on this forum ; am here to share my experience with dr oriomon about what he just did for me last week , for helping to reunited with my ex lover Mavis who broke up with me after 2 years of relationship because of his families did not like our relationship . but after Dr oriomon of oriomonspiritualtemple@gmail.com has done his wonderful work for me i was so shock when i saw Mavis calls on phone asking me to come back to him that him is ready to stay with me and beg his families to love our relationship and he actually did so and with a support from DR ORIOMON his parents that never wanted to see both of us promise to sponsor our wedding by December as we are planing now . so with this great work done for me by DR oriomon i promise not to stop telling others about his good work in my life , so if any one also need his help here i will advice you contact him to via (oriomonspiritualtemple@gmail.com) bye

    CLARA BENJAMIN _ CANADA



    DR.ORIOMON THE GREAT MAN OF ALL SPELL CASTER

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  36. I never knew people still have powers and make things happened this way. My name is sandra ruths am from American. my boyfriend Slay Scot left me for another girl for three months’ ever since then my life have been filled with pains sorrow and heart break because he was my first love who dis virgin me when i was 21 years old. about two years ago, A friend of mine kido matthew told me he saw some testimonies of this great Dr osauyi that he can bring back lover within some few days, i laugh it out and said i am not interested but because of the love my friend had for me, she consulted the great priest on my behalf and to my greatest surprise after three days my boyfriend is going to call me for the very first time after three months that he is missing me and that he is so sorry for every thing he made me went through. i still can’t believe it, because it highly unbelievable it just too real to be real. Thank you Dr osauyi for bringing back my lover and also to my lovely friend who interceded on my behalf, for any one who might need the help of this great priest here is the email address OSAUYILOVESPELL@GMAIL.COM.com or you can call the great man on +2348100515075

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  37. I never knew people still have powers and make things happened this way. My name is sandra ruths am from American. my boyfriend Slay Scot left me for another girl for three months’ ever since then my life have been filled with pains sorrow and heart break because he was my first love who dis virgin me when i was 21 years old. about two years ago, A friend of mine kido matthew told me he saw some testimonies of this great Dr osauyi that he can bring back lover within some few days, i laugh it out and said i am not interested but because of the love my friend had for me, she consulted the great priest on my behalf and to my greatest surprise after three days my boyfriend is going to call me for the very first time after three months that he is missing me and that he is so sorry for every thing he made me went through. i still can’t believe it, because it highly unbelievable it just too real to be real. Thank you Dr osauyi for bringing back my lover and also to my lovely friend who interceded on my behalf, for any one who might need the help of this great priest here is the email address OSAUYILOVESPELL@GMAIL.COM.com or you can call the great man on +2348100515075

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  38. I never knew people still have powers and make things happened this way. My name is sandra ruths am from American. my boyfriend Slay Scot left me for another girl for three months’ ever since then my life have been filled with pains sorrow and heart break because he was my first love who dis virgin me when i was 21 years old. about two years ago, A friend of mine kido matthew told me he saw some testimonies of this great Dr osauyi that he can bring back lover within some few days, i laugh it out and said i am not interested but because of the love my friend had for me, she consulted the great priest on my behalf and to my greatest surprise after three days my boyfriend is going to call me for the very first time after three months that he is missing me and that he is so sorry for every thing he made me went through. i still can’t believe it, because it highly unbelievable it just too real to be real. Thank you Dr osauyi for bringing back my lover and also to my lovely friend who interceded on my behalf, for any one who might need the help of this great priest here is the email address OSAUYILOVESPELL@GMAIL.COM.com or you can call the great man on +2348100515075

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  39. I never knew people still have powers and make things happened this way. My name is sandra ruths am from American. my boyfriend Slay Scot left me for another girl for three months’ ever since then my life have been filled with pains sorrow and heart break because he was my first love who dis virgin me when i was 21 years old. about two years ago, A friend of mine kido matthew told me he saw some testimonies of this great Dr osauyi that he can bring back lover within some few days, i laugh it out and said i am not interested but because of the love my friend had for me, she consulted the great priest on my behalf and to my greatest surprise after three days my boyfriend is going to call me for the very first time after three months that he is missing me and that he is so sorry for every thing he made me went through. i still can’t believe it, because it highly unbelievable it just too real to be real. Thank you Dr osauyi for bringing back my lover and also to my lovely friend who interceded on my behalf, for any one who might need the help of this great priest here is the email address OSAUYILOVESPELL@GMAIL.COM.com or you can call the great man on +2348100515075

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  40. Hello world
    Am Joy Philip, from USA, all thanks to DR.OMON omonualovespelltemple@hotmail.com for the reuniting spell he cast for me, my testimony goes like this, i was into a hard breakup with my ex who i was supposed to get married to, some little mistakes happened and he quit the relationship and told me that he is tired of me, the was the same person that always to me that he loves me he can do anything for me to make sure that i am happy always. so i was so surprise that he was telling me that he is tired of me, so i was crying when i heard this and unfortunately it was unable to bear the situation until i share my problem with my friend who directed me to this great spell caster DR.OMON she said this man also help her to heal her relationship when she was having problems on it, so i choose to also give this man a trial to see if he can also help me, for i was so surprise the man who have not be answering my calls for so many weeks pick up his one and call me and start to apologize that he is sorry for everything that happen and ask me to forgive him for the pains he has cause me. so my people as i am talking now my marriage date is already fixed so am so happy to tell you that all this happened with the powers of DR.OMON so i will happy direct you to this same great spell caster on his email: omonualovespelltemple@hotmail.com once you contact him automatically smile will come to your face. once more contact this great spell caster for any help via his email address: omonualovespelltemple@hotmail.com TRULY YOU ARE THE RIGHT EMAIL ADDRESS TO CONTACT.

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  41. I want to share my testimony, with the whole wide world, on how i got my ex husband back to me within 42 hours by the help of an amazing and powerful works of a great spell caster and spiritualist victorylifelovespelltemple@gmail.com . Here is my story. After 9 years in marriage with my husband, thompson . He divorced me and got separated from me and my kids, and left home to another lady. I did all i could to get him back, but all proved abortive. Until one faithful day, an old friend of mine that have worked in the same company with me, told me about a great spell caster on the Internet who helped her in a similar issue and also with financial problems. At first, i doubted it, but I decided to give it a try. When i contacted him, he helped me cast a re-union spell, and within 48 hours my husband came back to me pleading and apologizing to me. Today we are happy together, with abundant love and joy . With our 3 kids, a boy and two girls. You too can contact this great spell caster today, on your relationship, marriage or money problems now via his private email:victorylifelovespelltemple@gmail.com .Thank you once more great one, I won't forget your good works on my family.

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  42. Hi everyone, I'm Ramos. I've been really depress and been in so much pains after my wife left me. Life can be very displeasing especially when i try every way possible to get her back and all i got is been scammed by this fake Spiritual Spell Casters. I love my woman so much that i will do anything to get her back. I've search for spell caster who is for real because I've really tried a lot of spell caster but not until i saw Prophet Lord, solutionoflovespelltemple@gmail.com I'm new on this spell stuff but after talking and chatting with Prophet Lord then i realize he is the man i can completely trust. I know there are many of you out there who are in the same problem too and also looking for a real spell caster that can give wealth and bring back your love once.. Prophet Lord spell is real and within 24 hours of his spell my whole story got turn around and things started to be as before. Now our relationship is stronger than ever. I have no words to thank him enough. I like to recommend him to anyone who is facing hard times with your love life to contact Prophet Lord, solutionoflovespelltemple@gmail.com

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  43. Hello I am Brittney Lisa ,I am out here to spread this good news to the entire world on how I got my ex husband back.I was going crazy when my husband left me and my two kids for another woman last month, But when i met a friend that introduced me to Dr iayaryi the great messenger to the oracle of Dr iayaryi solution home,I narrated my problem to Dr iayaryi about how my ex Husband left me and my two kids and also how i needed to get a job in a very big company.He only said to me that i have come to the right place were i will be getting my heart desire without any side effect.He told me what i need to do,After it was been done,24 hours later,My Ex Husband called me on the phone and was saying sorry for living me and the kids before now and one week after my Husband called me to be pleading for forgiveness,I was called for interview in a very big company here in USA were i needed to work as the managing director..I am so happy and overwhelmed that i have to tell this to the entire world to contact Dr iayaryi on his personal email address and get all your problems solve..No problem is too big for him to solve..Contact him direct on: (driayaryi2012@hotmail.com)and get your problems solved like me..... ONCE AGAIN HIS EMAIL ADDRESS IS: (driayaryi2012@hotmail.com)

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  44. I am joes candra, I promise to share this testimony all over the world once my boyfriend return back to me, and today with all due respect i want to thank DR.OSAUYI for bringing joy and happiness to my relationship and my family. I want to inform you all that there is a spell caster that is real and genuine. I never believed in any of these things until i loosed my boyfriend, I required help until i found a grate spell caster, And he cast a love spell for me, and he assured me that I will get my boyfriend back in two days after the spell has been cast. Three days later, my phone rang, and so shockingly, it was my boyfriend who has not called me for past 6 years now, and made an apology for the heart break, and told me that he is ready to be my back bone till the rest of his life with me. DR.OSAUYI released him up to know how much i loved and wanted him. And opened his eyes to picture how much we have share together. As I`m writing this testimony right now I`m the most happiest girl on earth and me and my boyfriend is living a happy life and our love is now stronger than how it were even before our break up. So that`s why I promised to share my testimony all over the universe.All thanks goes to DR.OSAUYI for the excessive work that he has done for me. Below is the email address in any situation you are undergoing a heart break, and I assure you that as he has done mine for me, he will definitely help you too. OSAUYILOVESPELL@GMAIL.COM that is his email address bye

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  45. Hi My name is "j mark" just want to share my experience with the world on how i got my love back and saved my marriage.because i really love SONNIA so much that i can not even do without. I was married for 7years with sonnia and 2kids and we lived happily until things started getting ugly and we had fights and arguments almost every time... it got worse at a point that she filed for divorce... I tried my best to make her change her mind & stay with me cause i loved her with all my heart and didn't want to loose her but everything just didn't work out... she moved out of the house and still went ahead to file for divorce... I pleaded and tried everything but still nothing worked. The breakthrough came when someone introduced me to this wonderful, great spell caster who eventually helped me out... I have never been a fan of things like this but just decided to try reluctantly cause I was desperate and left with no choice... He did special prayers and used roots and herbs... Within 7 days she called me and was sorry for all the emotional trauma she had cost me, moved back to the house and we continue to live happily, the kids are happy too and we are expecting our third child. I have introduced him to a lot of couples with problems across the world and they have had good news... Just thought I should share my experience cause I strongly believe someone out there need's it... You can email him via ekpensolutionspellcasting@gmail.com Don't give up just yet, the different between "Ordinary" & "Extra-Ordinary" is the "Extra" so make extra effort to save your marriage/relationship if it's truly worth it.



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  46. My Name is ADAEZE..I never believed in Love Spells or Magics until I met this special spell caster when i went to Africa to Execute some business..He is really powerful..My wife divorce me with no reason for almost 4 years and i tried all i could to have her back cos i really love her so much but all my effort did not work out.. we met at our early age at the college and we both have feelings for each other and we got married happily for 5 years with no kid and she woke up one morning and she told me she’s going on a divorce..i thought it was a joke and when she came back from work she tender to me a divorce letter and she packed all her loads from my house..i ran mad and i tried all i could to have her back but all did not work out..i was lonely for almost 4 years…So when i told the spell caster what happened he said he will help me and he asked for her full name and her picture..i gave him that..At first i was skeptical but i gave it a try cos h ave tried so many spell casters and there is no solution…so when he finished with the readings,he got back to me that she’s with a man and that man is the reason why she left me…The spell caster said he will help me with a spell that will surely bring her back.but i never believe all this…he told me i will see a positive result within 3 days..3 days later,she called me herself and came to me apologizing and she told me she will come back to me..I cant believe this,it was like a dream cos i never believe this will work out after trying many spell casters and there is no solution..The spell caster is so powerful and after that he helped me with a pregnancy spell and my wife got pregnant a month later..we are now happy been together again and with lovely kid..This spell caster has really changed my life and i will forever thankful to him..he has helped many friends too with similar problem too and they are happy and thankful to him..This man is indeed the most powerful spell caster have ever experienced in life..Am Posting this to the Forum in case there is anyone who has similar problem and still looking for a way out..you can reach him here: shakesspear23@yahoo.com OR shakesspear23@gmail.com...... CONTACT THIS POWERFUL SPELL CASTER TODAY VIA EMAIL:shakesspear23@yahoo.com OR shakesspear23@gmail.com..

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  47. Three weeks ago my boyfriend broke up with me. it all started when i Travel to UK to spend my holiday with my friend,i was trying to contact him but it was not going through. So when i came back from UK i saw him with a lady kissing, i was frustrated and it gives me sleepless night. I called my friend told her what happened and she introduce me to a spell cater who helped her long time ago. Which i contact him and i never believed that the spell will work so easily because i have contacted many spell casters to get him back all they do is to take my money with no result. I am happy to tell you all that my boyfriend is back and committed to me alone and he do whatever i ask him to do with love and care. All thanks to SHAKES SPEAR the great magician who helped me to restore my boy friend to me: shakesspear23@yahoo.com OR shakesspear23@gmail.com.. Email this powerful and authentic spell caster via email now shakesspear23@yahoo.com OR shakesspear23@gmail.com

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  48. Reading SLY SLIMMERS article about a spell caster namely Shakes Spear was, i will say the best that ever happen to me this year based on the fact that i had a lot problem that i was trying to over come.I had problems at home which affected my work greatly. I was now always in a cross fire with my boss.I really don't want to tell story here so i guess i would just go strange to the point on what i have to say.My wife wanted out of our marriage for no just reason.We were married for four year and i think we were happy though we had no kids, it was her idea not to have any cos she wasn't ready to be a mom yet and i was okay with it i mean i didn't like the idea but i went along with it just to please her.It was always like that i mean she always get what she wants.All i wanted was to see her happy i could never do anything that will make her so unhappy.This was all i did wrong that is make her have it her way all the time. I mean that was the reason she gave during our therapy session.She wanted out of the marriage cos i was to nice. From what she said, i was the kind of man ever woman will die for but she wanted a real man to enforce his will no her meaning was i was to week a man for her.And that was the least of therapy session we had cos like she said we where wasting our life together and no amount of therapy was going to get us back together.I was a total mess thinking of how i was being dumped based on how much i loved my wife and how good i treated her,I really didn't know if she was ungrateful or just confused about what she wanted that is mid-life crisis but the bottom line is that she left me and who knows maybe for another man.I was still in love with her, she was the love of my life and i still wanted her to come back that was when i saw Eva-Yolanda article on Shakes Spear.When i contacted him he made me known that i will have to go through all the spell casting process.Like he said most people are too scared cos of trust issues.I had trust issues, but getting my wife back was my ulterior motive and from my experience with Shakes Spear i can tell you he is 100% truthful and honest with his customer.I was asked to get some material to prepare the spell and after which he sent me a package contain the spell and the rest just happen the way it was suppose to happen i got my wife back and she was my wife back again i mean she was not that woman who wanted a hard man she was woman i fell in love with who loved me cos i am me.If you want help or fell he can help contact him with his email address shakesspear23@yahoo.com OR shakesspear23@gmail.com..... ONCE AGAIN HIS EMAIL ADDRESS IS: shakesspear23@yahoo.com OR shakesspear23@gmail.com

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  49. Shakira Elliot Says

    Am giving this testimony cos am happy

    My name is Shakira Elliot from Houston,taxes.i never believed in love spells or magic until i met this spell caster once. when i went to Africa in June 28th 2013 this year on a business summit. i ment a man called DR SHAKES SPEAR. He is powerful he could help you cast a spells to bring back my love’s gone,misbehaving lover looking for some one to love you, bring back lost money and magic money spell or spell for a good job.i’m now happy & a living testimony cos the man i had wanted to marry left me 3 weeks before our wedding and my life was upside down cos our relationship has been on for 2 years… i really loved him, but his mother was against me and he had no good paying job. so when i met this spell caster, i told him what happened and explained the situation of things to him..at first i was undecided,skeptical and doubtful, but i just gave it a try. and in 6 days when i returned to taxes, my boyfriend (is now my husband ) he called me by himself and came to me apologizing that everything had been settled with his mom and family and he got a new job interview so we should get married..i didn’t believe it cos the spell caster only asked for my name and my boyfriends name and all i wanted him to do… well we are happily married now and we are expecting our little kid,and my husband also got a new job and our lives became much better. in case anyone needs the spell caster for some help, email address: shakesspear23@yahoo.com OR shakesspear23@gmail.com

    GREAT SHAKES SPEAR i thank you very much thank you in 1000000 times.. if not you i would have been losted and wasted thank you. Email Him Through his email address... shakesspear23@yahoo.com OR shakesspear23@gmail.com

    please make sure you contact him for any financial difficulties okay..

    What a powerful man such as DR SHAKES SPEAR.. he is so much powerful..\\ email him for any difficulties.. shakesspear23@yahoo.com OR shakesspear23@gmail.com

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  50. My mouth is full of testimonies, i am Erin my husband left the home for three years to UK for a tourist, where he meant this prostitute and he was bewitch by the girl my husband refuse to come back home again, i cry day and night looking for who to help me, i read a news paper about a powerful spell caster called Dr Zack Balo and i contacted the spell caster to help me get my lover back to me and he ask me not to worry about it that the gods we fight for me.. he told me by mid-night when all the spirit is at rest he will cast a spell to reunite my lover back to me. and he did in less than 3 days my husband came back to me and started crying that i should for forgive him, i,m so happy for what this spell caster did for me and my husband.. Dr Zack Balo of wiseindividualspell@gmail.com



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  51. BE CAREFUL HERE NOBODY CAN HELP YOU HERE OR EVEN SUGGEST HOW YOU CAN GET YOUR EX OR LOVE BACK,ANY TESTIMONIES OF MOST SPELL CASTER HERE MUST BE IGNORE.BECAUSE MOST OF THEM ARE SCAM I MEAN REAL SCAM WHICH I WAS A VICTIM AND I GOT RIPPED OF THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS BECAUSE I WAS SO ANXIOUS TO GET MY WIFE BACK AFTER SHE LEFT ME FOR OVER 2 YEARS WITH MY 7 YEARS OLD SON JERRY,I HAVE APPLIED TO 7 DIFFERENT SPELL CASTER HERE AND ALL TO NO AVAIL THEY ALL ASK FOR SAME THING SEND YOUR NAME YOUR EX NAME ADDRESS AND PICTURE PHONE NUMBER ETC WHICH I DID OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND MOST OF THEM WERE FROM WEST AFRICA UNTIL I SAW A POST ABOUT MAMA ANITA SPELL AND I DECIDED TO GAVE HER MY LAST TRAIL.SHE ASK ME FOUR THINGS MY REAL NAME,MY EX AND MY EX MOTHER NAME AND $180 AND SAID MY EX WILL COME BACK IN 24HOURS, I HAVE PAID OVER $3000 ON SPELL CASTING AND COURIER AND NOTHING HAVE WORK FOR ME AFTER 3 DAYS I WAS THINKING ABOUT HOW MUCH I HAVE LOST SO FAR SO I SAID LET ME GIVE HER A TRY SO I CALLED HER AGAIN AND SEND MY REAL NAME,MY EX AND MY EX MOTHER NAME AND THE $180 BECAUSE I SWEAR IT WAS MY LAST TRY SO I WAS WAITING AS SHE TOLD ME TO WAIT TILL NEXT DAY AND I COULD NOT SLEEP THAT NIGHT BECAUSE I REALLY LOVE MY WIFE AND WANT HER BACK AT 9PM THAT DAY I SAW MY WIFE ON LINE ON FACE BOOK AND SHE SAID HI AT FIRST I WAS SHOCK BECAUSE SHE NEVER TALK WITH ME FOR THE PAST A YEAR AND 9 MONTH NOW I DID NOT REPLY AGAIN SHE SAID ARE YOU THERE? I QUICKLY REPLY YES AND SHE SAID CAN WE SEE TOMORROW I SAID YES AND SHE WENT OFF-LINE I WAS CONFUSED I TRY TO CHAT HER AGAIN BUT SHE WAS NO MORE ON LINE I COULD NOT SLEEP THAT NIGHT AS I WAS WONDERING WHAT SHE IS GOING TO SAY, BY 7.AM THE NEXT MORNING SHE GAVE ME A MISS CALL I DECIDED NOT TO CALL BACK AS I WAS STILL ON SHOCK AGAIN SHE CALL AND I PICK SHE SAID CAN WE SEE AFTER WORK TODAY I SAID YES SO SHE END THE CALL IMMEDIATELY I GOT OFF WORK SHE CALL ME AND WE MEET AND NOW WE ARE BACK AGAIN I CALL MAMA ANITA THE NEXT DAY THANKING HER FOR WHAT SHE HAS DONE IN FACT I STILL CALL HER AND THANK HER AS MY LIFE WAS NOT COMPLETE WITHOUT MY WIFE PLEASE BE CAREFUL HERE I HAVE BEEN SCAM THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS IF YOU WANT A TRUE LOVE SPELL THEN CONTACT MAMA ANITA (mama.anitatruelovespell@gmail.com)

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