Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Love, Fear, Courage and Faith - What Cancer Does to a Family

I never intended this to become a cancer blog, any more than I intended it to become a recovery blog when I first started it to be a jewelry blog four years ago.

It won't always be a cancer blog, but cancer - like active alcoholism - is a totally absorbing, all consuming thing.  Everything in my world - literally everything - revolves around having cancer.  The kids' schedules, my husband's schedule, my schedule - nothing can be set in stone until my treatment logistics are pinned down.

And that's just the practical part of having cancer.

The emotional part is the real all consuming thing - for all of us.  The kids having to make adjustments to my weakened state, learning to be more self-sufficient, being brave about new sitters and going on play dates at school friends' houses they have never been to before.  Getting rides from Mommy friends of mine that they know, but haven't driven with before.  Any one of these things would have been a big deal Before Cancer.   After Cancer they are learning to adjust on the fly, because they don't really have a choice.  I am so proud of both of them, bravely extending their horizons, stepping almost daily outside of their comfort zones, managing their fear of my illness along with all these new things.

My husband is working so hard - both at his job and here at home - he is parenting the kids most of the time, and being a care-taker for me, all while managing the regular day-to-day business of full time job.   He amazes me every day at the patience he shows the kids, even when I know he is stretched to his limits.  He asks me over and over, what do you need?  What can I get you?   He is a strong shoulder for me to cry on when I need to, even as he tucks his own worries away he strokes my back and tells me everything will be okay. He looks out for ways to make my life easier - a laptop table next to my bed, cleaning out cabinets to make things more accessible, finding just the right thing to cheer me up.

Cancer impacts the whole family, on every level.

I struggle to come up with things to write about that aren't cancer related -- but those thing don't exist in my world at the moment.  My thoughts are consumed with managing symptoms, pain, sleep, medications and trying to keep fear at a healthy arms' length away.

I have been stripped down, emotionally, to an almost child-like state.

I think back to where I was a year ago - preparing to fly to the Blissdom Conference in Nashville, meet up with friends, speak on a panel, network and try to spread the word about Crying Out Now.  I had recently met my weight loss goal of 65 lbs, and was generally feeling on top of the world.

These days there is no room for dreams, for ego, for thinking about building my business or networking.  Those days will come again, I believe, but at the moment they feel long gone.

These days it is all about "what did you eat today, hon? Anything?"  "How is the pain?" "When did you last take such-and-such medicine?"

And then my least favorite: "Have you, you know, gone today yet?" (like with children, bowel movements, or lack thereof, are a hot topic.  Sorry if that is over sharing, but the doctors are concerned and I'm concerned, so the whole family is involved in finding foods that will help Momma GO.)

So maybe I'm more like a potty-training toddler.

My thoughts are so centered around me, not in an egotistical way at all, it's just there isn't room for anything else.  I go into the kids' bedrooms at night to kiss their foreheads while they sleep and my heart aches; there is so much I don't know about their day-to-day life right now.  Their worlds are held safely in the hands of my Mom, my friends, and sitters.

I'm still grappling with fear, too, although it is so much better than it was.  Stripping my life down to its barest essentials meant that a lot of my former day-to-day fears were stripped away, too. They almost make me laugh, the things that I worried about Before Cancer. Things like not measuring up, trying to fit in, neuroses about why so-and-so seems upset with me, or so-and-so hasn't called in while.  Those petty concerns about keeping up with the other Moms, being successful in business and raising kids - doing it all, and doing it all well - they seem very, very far away.

These days I live in a nearly constant state of deprivation.

I can't eat, I can't drive anymore, I can't talk easily on the phone (or at all, because of the pain), I don't have the energy to do much of anything.  Deprivation does funny things to your mind. First it drove me nearly insane, as I struggled against it. I fantasized about my old life: about exercising, about biting into a cheeseburger, about going to the grocery store and piling food into my cart, about meeting up with friends for breakfast, or a night out.

Slowly, slowly, I am adjusting to my new normal, and now I don't think much about those things anymore. There isn't any point; it only brings misery.  I have tucked myself into my little nest of a world, and I'm waiting it out.  I know there are things - important life lessons - I will learn through this experience, especially coming on the heels of another tough life change: losing my Dad so suddenly in June.  I had barely begun to process his death when the cancer came along.  I've decided to put all the Major Life Lessons on a shelf, though, for a while. I don't have to figure this all out now. I just have to put one foot in front of the other, keep my heart and mind as open as I can, and get from one end of the day to the other.

And then I have to get up and do it again the next day.  But I'll think about that tomorrow.

And, of course, my "what if I get cancer someday" obsession -- a fear I carried with me my whole life like a nasty, heavy piece of baggage -- now that it's part of my daily world, it isn't nearly as scary as I imagined as I cultivated my fear-fueled obsession with disease.  Because we adapt, we do, in astonishing ways.

There is an issue with the lump on my neck; the one that holds the tumor inside. Last week it got bigger, and then a LOT bigger, and the doctors and nurses tried to downplay it, but I speak fluent non-verbal communication among doctors and nurses now and I knew they were concerned.  There was talk of doing a CT Scan to see what is up, but that wouldn't change the treatment protocol at all, so it was decided to stay the course.  And the lump is getting smaller again, slowly.  Hopefully it will continue in this direction.  The doctor yesterday basically (again, in doctor-speak) prepared me for the idea that I will very likely need surgery to remove the lump after chemo and radiation are done.

"And if we find there are active cancer cells in the lump after we remove it?" I asked.  I am not afraid of answers anymore. I do not stick my head in the sand.  I want to know. Sometimes I don't even recognize myself when I hear myself speak to doctors

"Well, then we celebrate that we took it out and didn't wait to see if it would shrink," was his guarded reply.

I decided not to press it, because I know he doesn't have a crystal ball, he doesn't know why tumors behave the way they do.   He did tell me he had one other case like this, where the tumor just wouldn't shrink, but when they removed it after treatment was done it was just "rubble" - no cancer.

Steve heard "rubble"; I heard "only one other case."   So the fear thing is a work in progress, but I've come a long way.

Tomorrow (thankfully) the feeding tube goes in - I don't know if it will be overnight procedure or not, but they will have to put me under general anesthesia to place it in.  My throat is too far gone for me to be awake, even under conscious sedation.

I am hoping the feeding tube helps me get some strength back - I'm lucky if I get 800 calories (all liquids like Ensure or Carnation Instant Breakfast) into me during the day.  I should be having, in my compromised state, closer to 1800 calories.  So I hope the tube helps with the healing and the energy.

The kids are calling it my "belly button straw", which makes me laugh even as I dread having one at all.

This print can be found in the Etsy shop RococcoLA
I wasn't paid or compensated in any way to promote it. I just love it.
Thank you for being here, reading.  Your comments and support help me SO MUCH.  Being able to write through this has been healing for me.  As hard as they are, I want to remember these cancer days, too, because there are so many moments of breathless beauty and bravery, and I want to capture those, along with the pain and the fear.

It's bringing my family closer, even as I feel like I'm drifting away. Writing helps me not lose sight of how my kids, my husband, my Mom, and my friends - OH my friends - are carrying me when I don't always feel like carrying myself.

So thank you.  Thank you so very much.



95 comments:

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  2. Sending hugs and prayers your way.

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  3. Oh dear Ellie. You are wonderful. Amazing. You know, this post could have been "What cancer can do for a family" because without your amazing spirit and open heart - this illness could pull a family to pieces. I hope all goes well with the feeding tube - you are in my thoughts and prayers. Lots of love.

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  4. loving thoughts and prayers for you.

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  5. Sending lots of love and prayers to you, Ellie!

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  6. Love your words about letting others carry you when you cannot carry yourself. The very act of letting others carry you shows so much strength and faith. You are learning a lesson that I fear I could not learn ... I always think that I should be in control; that I should do everything; that I can make everything right. And I need to learn that it does take a village. Keeping you in my prayers.
    Lee Ann

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  7. Hi there Ellie.....through it all I am so grateful you continue to write about your life. I cannot say this enough - your writing makes me feel so much less lonely out here and even with the cancer I will never tired of reading what you have to say.

    There's no denying it - this is a grueling, brutal time for you and you are doing what you can and that is driving right through the situation with hope and faith.

    I don't know if you ever found out but their is a great blender called a Vitamix. We own one and it's fantastic. You will qualify for one at a significant discount. The Vitamix blends up WHOLE foods into a juice. That means the entire orange, kale, blueberries etc. So check them out.

    In the meantime, I will keep praying for you and your family. I don't have a crystal ball either but I really believe you are going to knock this Cancer off it's ass!!!!!!!!!! Nobody puts Ellie in a Corner! Not denial, not fear, not addiction and definitely not CANCER!!!!

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  8. Sending you all good thoughts and prayers...you are getting through this! So blessed with your wonderful family; I know this is a huge help too!

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  9. Sending you and your family thoughts and prayers. Thank you for writing here, for sharing this struggle with us.

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  10. Hi Ellie. I know I don't know you personally, but your blog has touched me very much as I've gone through my own sobriety. I think about you when I don't see you on my reader, and I'm sending you good thoughts and hugs. You've amazed me with your strength in your sobriety and now with this as well. You're just awesome. : ) <3

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  11. Love, love, love you, dear woman. ♥♥

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  12. I love that elephant, afloat on balloons of love, too. Sending you so much love. xoxo

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  13. Hi Ellie, just thinking about you and including you in morning prayers. While I know all too well how difficult it is, I can also see that you are doing well and I believe your attitude will continue to carry you through.

    The time left is getting shorter, and then you can think about gaining weight instead of losing it :). What a change, huh?

    Hugs, beautiful woman,

    Mike L

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  14. I'm reading every post, even if I'm not commenting. Keep going Ellie!

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  15. Thoughts and prayers for you and your family. Your strength is truly amazing. God bless you.

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  16. Thank you for sharing your journey. I think it's important for us to hear it.

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  17. Thinking of you, Ellie, and sending good thoughts your way.

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  18. Love you Ellie. You are always in my prayers.

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  19. I stumbled across your blog the other day, and wanted to thank you for sharing what's going on in your life right now. I can relate so much to the part where you wrote about your friends and family carrying you when you don't always feel like carrying yourself. I am a 32 year old mother of two little boys ages 4 and 1, and was diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer on November 18-the same day I think you received your diagnosis. I had a mastectomy on Nov 30th, and had my first chemo treatment yesterday. Times are tough, and I appreciate you sharing your story. Everyone's stories are different, but once you are touched by cancer, there's no going back, and we are all connected in some way, almost like a club you never really thought you'd be a part of. Hope the feeding tube insertion goes well. Thinking of you and sending hugs!

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  20. Love and strength to you, Ellie.

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  21. hey, ellie...you know what cancer does to a family...you have mentioned it already several times. the notes from your kids in your prayer box...:) your family loves and appreciates and adores you more than they ever knew...and when this is over you all will be closer and more loving in a way none of you dreamed. cancer has made life REAL...the day to day, harried silliness, taking for granted...gone. you and your family will be more loving and appreciative and able to live in the moment. your kids are learning to love with strength and ferocity most people never experience. this too shall pass, and when it does you will be an even more awesome family!! LOVE and PRAYERS from Charleston!!
    ~valary

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  22. Love you to pieces, you sweet, brave soul. So proud of you for your strength, honesty, vulnerability, and faith.

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  23. Cancer is an AMAZING process for so many reasons. I felt like it showed me how far reaching love, support and prayer can be. I remember writing on of my Facebook updates during my treatment "it absolutely amazes me that people I have never met and likely never will find it in their hearts to whisper my name to GOD and ask him to heal me". It still makes tears stream down my face. I am a Lucky Girl!! I also can relate to your experiences with your children. I remember having a conversation with my youngest asking about what other family members were doing. My mother kept my house cleaned for me, so he said that Mimi cleans, I asked what does daddy do? "He cooks". I asked what does mommy do? "You take naps". Ahh the honesty of children. xoxo. Hang in there.

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  24. I have been reading your blog for awhile now, never commented though :) Guess that is "stalking", right! I stumbled upon the blog looking for support for the women I work with (pregnancy/addiction/recovery/depression) and fell in love with your words. I am supporting you from a far and sending you strength. You are a brave, amazing woman. Keep fighting-I will be here reading and cheering.

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  25. I'm so sorry you got elected as "teacher of all of life's hardest lessons at way too young an age" but I am learning so much from you.

    Surrender is the most amazing gift. I hope you can ride it through the last day of treatment and well beyond.

    Love you.

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  26. You have such a supportive loving family - that is so awesome. I pray you sail through the feeding tube procedure with no discomfort. Today it's rightfully all about the challenges of taking care of yourself. There is no other way to get through this. You are doing great. You continue to be so attuned and sensitive - it just amazes me. Somehow your perceptive and articulate clarity actually helps me get closure on what I went through two years ago. You are going through this with the attitude I had hoped for (but couldn't quite maintain.) Thank you again for sharing your journey - you inspire so many. Keep the calories and water flowing in - at least try to get close to 1800 (I rarely, if ever, met that goal- some days I didn't even get close - just do the best you can - every little bit helps keep your strength and healing going :) Ellie - I pray for you daily.

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  27. Even strangers...rooting for you...sending you healing energy and light through this strange interwoven world-wide-web. Thank you for sharing, Ellie.

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  28. all I can do is pray for you and your family

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  29. You were one of the first blogs I discovered after realizing I had to stop drinking. It was a hard, uphill battle that I couldn't have fought without inspirational angels like you and just like in the early days of sobriety I check in with you every day to see what wisdom you will share. I have 2 girls age 17 and 14 and I signed them both up for Gardasil shots because of what I learned on this site. I am so proud of you for choosing to see this experience as a reason to be grateful. You are in my prayers and on my mind every day. Get well. You are amazing!

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  30. I'm new to your blog, stumbled upon after arranging a playdate with the daughter of one of your 'commandos'.
    I don't think you realize just how many mothers are praying for you and your family. It is a sisterhood, to be sure, and we all offer our fierce mother-strength, and wish we could ease your burden in some way. "But for the Grace of God ..." it could be any one of us fighting the battle you face now.

    I believe there isn't a person on this planet stronger than a mother. And I believe there is no force greater than prayer. So, with this in mind, I hope you find a morsel of comfort knowing that mothers everywhere are praying for you.

    Be well. Use the strength of those around you.

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  31. Ellie, you have so much inner strength. Your perceptiveness and your attitude are truly amazing. I hope that belly button straw provides some body strength now.
    Sending more love and prayers.
    s

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  32. wow! what an amazing blog post. You are all stepping outside of your comfort zones! I can see it is not easy, but together you are helping each other! God Bless and I am wishing you well on your procedure.
    Dawn

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  33. Much love to you, Ellie - still, always. xo

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  34. Sending you tons of love, Ellie. This is the first time I've read your blog and I will be reading more. I have a basket that I call a Basket of Blessing for people that are ill and would love to send one to you, if you'd like.

    Putting you and your family on my prayer list.

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  35. You. Are. So. Darn. Beautiful.

    Eloquent, delicate, strong. Honest. What you're giving your friends and your family is beyond comprehension...and something that nothing but this experience can teach.

    Again, praying and hoping for you, though I'm not sure you need the hoping part...you're doing pretty good on hope on your own (and you give me such a needed perspective).

    Thank you.

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  36. I'm new here and so in awe of your bravery. Losing your dad AND getting cancer in the same year? Holy moly. I am so sorry. You've reminded me to see the beauty in the mundane mommy things, like pushing a full grocery cart. I'm sure you've already taught so many readers to see the good in each day. Thank you for that. I wish you WELL.

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  37. Prayers for healing, comfort and strength everyday for you, dear Ellie.

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  38. Oh Ellie. My husband walked by while I was reading this post right now and could tell I was engrossed. I told him what I was reading and he asked how you were. I told him you were so brave and so honest and so authentic as you travel this path. Every time I read one of your posts, it helps to chip a little fear away for me too. Thank you for so self-lessly giving. My heart opens and I learn so much from reading of your revelations, your fears, and your hope. You are my hero. xoxo

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  39. I wrote a whole comment on how I manage my constipation and it disappeared! I tried to send it via AIM & it bombed out. Or maybe you'll get it twice??
    So it was something like this:
    I take 2 stool softeners every morning and 2 every night to keep things moving. It's the plain kind, not the kind with laxative so it's okay. It's OTC & cheap and really works. You can get it in liquid form too for your tube if ask the pharmacist. Please try it. It took a long time for me to figure out how to manage it and constipation is miserable even when you're healthy. Best wishes; you are in my prayers. Camla

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  40. Ellie, I found you through Heather of the EO and I am now reading all of your words. You have a beautiful way with words, you do know that, right? My heart lifts you up in prayer, patience, grace and strength. May you know how very much you are cared for.

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  41. It is pretty amazing that in the midst of this you are still able to post here ... and with as much finesse and clarity as ever.

    Sometimes I know that I don't even hear/know my own story until I've said it out loud or written it out. It is almost like hearing someone else say what I've said! Weird, but true. So we need to tell our stories, I think, for our own sake as well as for others. We tell our stories so that we can get better at telling/creating the grand story that is our lives, to make of our lives a story that touches others and is worthy to pass on to our children. What a fine, fine job you are doing!

    You've done so, so much to help others tell their story, Ellie. So many lives turned around. Who can say how big and far-reaching the impact of what you've done will be?

    We'd certainly understand if you took a break from blogging now ... but we're grateful that you haven't yet. Hang in there ... and carry on! You're one brave trooper, and your courage will make all the difference.

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  42. You are amazing and we love you! Keep blogging about this, anything else wouldn't feel real.

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  43. Being able to write through this.
    I get that. I write too, though not as eloquently as you.

    If you have time and any energy left over, I'd be honored if you would stop by my blog, I think it's on my Open ID (Google) which may be in my "follower profile". If not, just google "Get Unwrapped!"

    I'm so glad you've been able to write through this, and through so much more than this. Writing - for writers - touches an area in us that nothing else can. It helps us process difficult feelings, helps us remember what things were like at the time, and helps us heal. And sometimes - our writings help one other heal. Like yours does with me.

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  44. I mean this: You are inspiring, and strong, and honest. I'm very honored to know you, even a little, and I think of you often. And your journey and how you share it with us and how I want this to be over so soon for you and for it all to be OK. And it will.

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  45. first of all, how you write at all, never mind with such beauty and elegance on 800 calories a day, in pain and exhausted, is nothing short of amazing.

    Second, I have been reading every single post about this journey and I do so as a wake up call to myself, to remind me of what is really important in life and for that I thank you for this gift.

    I just looked at my calendar and as Deb said, I wish I could make this over fast, right now, today. I know it feels like forever but as you said you're now over half way there.

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  46. Since stumbling upon your blog, there has not been a day that goes by that I don't think about you. I continue to send prayers and positive thoughts your way.

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  47. Sending you our prayers. Cancer has touched my family to many times. I continue to pray that your treatment goes well and that you will be cancer free soon.

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  48. Praying for you and your family.

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  49. Okay I know we have met at a conference. Your face looks so familiar. I came here via Heather at Extraordinary Ordinary. I was diagnosed shortly after 2010 Type A Conference with Thyroid Cancer. I've had the removal of my whole thyroid and my first and hopefully last treatment. I have to be checked and a small treatment done once a year for the rest of my life. The scare will never go away. I am so thankful to read someone that puts it out there. I've had trouble saying it in words. I was shaking my head in agreement the whole way through this. Your fight is more involved than mine but once the word cancer is there, your life and outlook on life totally changes. Thanks so much for sharing. I'm subscribing now! Many prayers for you and your family!

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  50. Hi Ellie, I just saw the video your friends made you. How wonderful is that? Friends and strangers alike, you are in our daily thoughts. We care so much. I hope this painful time passes quickly and that before you know it, you will be up and about participating in all the fun you and your friends create. You are such a good, good person. I hope you know how many people you have touched as you go thru your journey. Love, Joanne

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  51. Oh Ellie. The bravery's stunning. Just stunning. Yours, your family's.

    And the elephant being carried by love. That says it all, doesn't it?

    I'm adding my love to the groups's, everyday, although I'm inpmaginig you more like a gazelle than an elephant!

    Re: the going - and you're right, people get obsessed, don't they.,- try magnesium capsules. Check, though my understanding is can't hurt, might help. A lot.


    Love to you...

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  52. I just wanted to send you love & healing thoughts. I am 10 years past cancer and I want you to keep in mind that there is & will be an after cancer for you, too. This will be a memory one day. I am deeply moved by your strong will & courage. Let this carry you through. XO

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  53. You are such an amazing and inspirational woman! What awesome and brave children you are raising! Thank you for sharing your story with such honesty and heart.

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  54. Sending prayers and hugs your way.

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  55. Dear Ellie, I'm so sorry I haven't posted in a long, long time. After all the hope and help you and your blog gave me in getting sober, it was really hard for me to deal with your diagnosis. Then I got over myself so here I am to show you the love and support you gave me! I've been thinking about you and your family, and praying for you all as well. My 18 month (a whole year and a half!!!) sobriety date is coming up and I know I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you. You are such a strong woman, keep your head up, and just keep swimming!

    PS I would love to send you something thru the mail, what address would I send it to?

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  56. Praying for you and your family

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  57. Ellie, my love, your strength and resilience shine thru your words like lasers. Know you are being help up to the Universal Healing Power every single day. You are going to be all right--the doc said so at the beginning and I believe his knowledge, family support and your fortitude will bring you out the other side intact. We're waiting to help any way we can. (Hugs)

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  58. Your blog is very inspiring. Stay strong... You sound like an amazing woman and after what you've already pulled through ( just per my reading your blog) I know you will Prevail!

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  59. I started reading your blog in early October after an unpleasant night out with my husband and friends. I drank too much, took a cab home early and woke up to find him on the couch not very happy with my behavior AGAIN. I stopped reading for awhile and just checked back and am stunned by your cancer diagnosis. I don't know how you manage to write your thoughts so beautifully for all of us to read. You made me truly realize how lucky I am to live with the day-to-day doldrums of raising two little people and being a stay-at-home mom. I will NEVER again regret the time that I spend with them -- no matter how mundane. Sending many prayers and thoughts your way for a full recovery!

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  60. This song popped into my head as I read. "Marchin On" by OneRepublic.
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UHvgAJe8bvM&ob=av2e

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  61. Your new normal is our new normal along with you.

    You'll never be alone, there are so many prayer warriors here for you.

    I can't help it, and I wear your wonderful touched by you LTYM necklace everyday to keep you on my mind.

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  62. Ellie, I was just talking to My Girl A about that "new normal" - that the world just was 'cancer' for a while, and that's OK. One day, your normal will shift again and I can't wait for that day for you.
    Been thinking of you, and will say a prayer tomorrow. And sending a High Five to those kids of yours, being so incredible.

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    1. My Husband left me for another woman, And i am so glad that my husband is back today, with the help of Dr Brave, He is Powerful and Genuine, My name is Becky Miller , I live in California,USA. I'm happily married to a lovely and caring husband ,with three kids. A very big problem occurred in my family seven months ago,between me and my husband .so terrible that he took the case to court for a divorce.he said that he never wanted to stay with me again,and that he didn't love me anymore.So he packed out of the house and made me and my children passed through severe pain. I tried all my possible means to get him back,after much begging,but all to no avail.and he confirmed it that he has made his decision,and he never wanted to see me again. So on one evening,as i was coming back from work,i met an old friend of mine who asked of my husband .So i explained every thing to him,so he told me that the only way i can get my husband back,is to visit a spell caster,because it has really worked for him too.So i never believed in spell,but i had no other choice,than to follow his advice. Then he gave me the email address of the spell caster whom he visited.{bravespellcaster@gmail.com}. So the next morning,i sent a mail to the address he gave to me,and the spell caster assured me that i will get my husband back the next day.What an amazing statement!! I never believed,so he spoke with me,and told me everything that i need to do. Then the next morning, So surprisingly, my husband who didn't call me for the past seven 9 months,gave me a call to inform me that he was coming back.So Amazing!! So that was how he came back that same day,with lots of love and joy,and he apologized for his mistake,and for the pain he caused me and my children. Then from that day,our relationship was now stronger than how it were before,by the help of a spell caster. So, i will advice you out there to kindly visit the same website { http://lovespelldrbrave.weebly.com/. } if you have any problem contact Dr Brave ,{ bravespellcaster@gmail.com }, thanks you Dr Brave, i will always be testifying about your good work.

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  63. Gosh, I lost my Dad 6 months before I was diagnosed, too. In a way, I was kind of glad he didn't have to worry about me, if that makes sense?

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  64. I'm just discovering these posts - but not your blog. And I don't have any idea how I missed them, but maybe I was meant to find them now. My husband was diagnosed with thyroid cancer on Tuesday and it has rocked our world - as you know all too well. Thanks for these posts, so very much.

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  65. My Husband left me for another woman, And i am so glad that my husband is back today, with the help of Dr Brave, He is Powerful and Genuine, My name is Becky Miller , I live in California,USA. I'm happily married to a lovely and caring husband ,with three kids. A very big problem occurred in my family seven months ago,between me and my husband .so terrible that he took the case to court for a divorce.he said that he never wanted to stay with me again,and that he didn't love me anymore.So he packed out of the house and made me and my children passed through severe pain. I tried all my possible means to get him back,after much begging,but all to no avail.and he confirmed it that he has made his decision,and he never wanted to see me again. So on one evening,as i was coming back from work,i met an old friend of mine who asked of my husband .So i explained every thing to him,so he told me that the only way i can get my husband back,is to visit a spell caster,because it has really worked for him too.So i never believed in spell,but i had no other choice,than to follow his advice. Then he gave me the email address of the spell caster whom he visited.{bravespellcaster@gmail.com}. So the next morning,i sent a mail to the address he gave to me,and the spell caster assured me that i will get my husband back the next day.What an amazing statement!! I never believed,so he spoke with me,and told me everything that i need to do. Then the next morning, So surprisingly, my husband who didn't call me for the past seven 9 months,gave me a call to inform me that he was coming back.So Amazing!! So that was how he came back that same day,with lots of love and joy,and he apologized for his mistake,and for the pain he caused me and my children. Then from that day,our relationship was now stronger than how it were before,by the help of a spell caster. So, i will advice you out there to kindly visit the same website { http://lovespelldrbrave.weebly.com/. } if you have any problem contact Dr Brave ,{ bravespellcaster@gmail.com }, thanks you Dr Brave, i will always be testifying about your good work.

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  66. My Name is Carol williams ..I never believed in Love Spells or Magics until I metthis special spell caster when i contact this man called Dr.jartospellcaster@gmail.com Execute some business..He is really powerful..My wife divorce me with no reason for almost 4 years and i tried all i could to have her back cos i really love her so much but all my effort did not work out.. we met at our early age at the college and we both have feelings for each other and we got married happily for 5 years with no kid and she woke up one morning and she told me she’s going on a divorce..i thought it was a joke and when she came back from work she tender to me a divorce letter and she packed all her loads from my house..i ran mad and i tried all i could to have her back but all did not work out..i was lonely for almost 4 years...So when i told the spell caster what happened he said he will help me and he asked for her full name and her picture..i gave him that..At first i was skeptical but i gave it a try cos have tried so many spell casters and there is no solution...so when he finished with the readings,he got back to me that she’s with a man and that man is the reason why she left me...The spell caster said he will help me with a spell that will surely bring her back.but i never believe all this...he told me i will see a positive result within 3 days..3 days later,she called me herself and came to me apologizing and she told me she will come back to me..I cant believe this,it was like a dream cos i never believe this will work out after trying many spell casters and there is no solution..The spell caster is so powerful and after that he helped me with a pregnancy spell and my wife got pregnant a month later..we are now happy been together again and with lovely kid..This spell caster has really changed my life and i will forever thankful to him..he has helped many friends too with similar problem too and they are happy and thankful to him..This man is indeed the most powerful spell caster have ever experienced in life..Am Posting this to the Forum in case there is anyone who has similar problem and still looking for a way out..you can reach him here:Dr.jartospellcaster@gmail.com... CONTACT THIS GREAT AND POWERFUL SPELL CASTER CALLED Dr.jartospellcaster@gmail.com ... HIS EMAIL ADDRESS IS :Dr.jartospellcaster@gmail.com.. CONTACT HIM NOW AND BE FAST ABOUT IT SO HE CAN ALSO ATTEND TO YOU BECAUSE THE EARLIER YOU CONTACT HIM NOW THE BETTER FOR YOU TO GET QUICK SOLUTION TO ALL YOUR PROBLEMS.


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  67. Hello My name is Kathie Sherine, Am from USA, Texas. and I am very happy for posting on this blog on how a great spell caster helped me in bringing back the love of my life. I know there are lots of women like me out there who have done so much to have back their Husband, I am here to tell you all to search no further because the answer is right here. I sincerely believe if there are up to five spell casters like Dr Eboehi this world would be a better place, I have seen people complaining on how fake spell castes promised to help them but couldn't but with Dr Eboehi I tell you your problem is solved already. My Husband and I had been apart for 3 YEARS and I couldn't bear without living without him, I have tried everything to have him back but nothing was working until I saw numerous testimonies about a spell caster called Dr Eboehi and how great his work is. I contacted him via email (eboehispellcaster@yahoo.com) immediately and follow the step that he ask and in the next 48 hours my lover called me and was eager for my forgiveness and that he wished nothing more than to have me in his arms forever. I filled so much joy and happiness that I found Dr Eboehi, I hope you all here will find this testimony of mine and get your husband back in just 48 hours thanks... contact his email: eboehispellcaster@yahoo.com or call (208) 627-4749

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  68. How To Get Your Lost Husband Back

    “LOVE is the key to LIFE”. That was the word from Dr Ukaka when I consulted his powerful Love Temple. I married the wrong man; I realized that after four years of our unfruitful marriage. Everything was going from Best to Worst in our life, no child, I got demoted from work after our marriage, my husband was sacked a year after. His application for new job in various offices was constantly declined even though he was qualified enough. I was made to take care of my family with the low income I earn get that wasn’t enough to pay our rent. We keep praying a seeking for help from some people, my friends laugh at me behind because I was advised not to get married yet.It was one Thursday night that my husband woke me up and told me that has thought enough about our crisis, he said that our crisis is not ordinary and it’s beyond our spiritual level. He suggested we should consult Dr Ukaka from testimonies he showed me online about how he has been helping families. I was afraid, I don’t like evil or spell but I supported him to contact him if he can help us. We consulted him via freedomlovespell@hotmail.com and he replied positively after 20munites with congratulating email that he can help us but he will need our pure heart and trusts in his work if he will cast the spell on us and purify our life. We agreed to his terms. He cast the spell and told us to expect results within 5days. I waited for three days nothing happened, so I started having doubt and blaming my husband for emailing Dr Ukaka. It was on the fifth day that my husband was called for an interview and he got a well-paying work, I was prompted to a higher position. I missed my period on the 5th day and it was confirmed that I am with a baby. Things have really changed for us for good and we now have our own house and cars. I will never forget what Dr Ukaka told us “LOVE is the key to LIFE”, this word keep me going. People that laughed at us are coming close for help and I am delighted to welcome them because my family is now blessed. Dr Ukaka is a savior and man that keep to his word even when I doubted his powers at the end of the spell. Thank you great Dr Ukaka and your Oracle for helping us via freedomlovespell@hotmail.com and I will keep spreading this message to people in need of help. also contact him for help.website address: freedomlovespelltemple.yolasite.com ;

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  69. My Wife divorce me for no reason, Thanks to Dr Brave for bringing back my wife,and brought great joy to my family once again, My name is James Mack. i live in Italy, I`m happily married to a lovely and caring wife,with two kids A very big problem occurred in my family seven months ago,between me and my wife so terrible that she took the case to court for a divorce she said that she never wanted to stay with me again,and that she did not love me anymore So she packed out of my house and made me and my children passed through severe pain. I tried all my possible means to get her back,after much begging,but all to no avail and she confirmed it that she has made her decision,and she never wanted to see me again. So on one evening,as i was coming back from work,i met an old friend of mine who asked of my wife So i explained every thing to her,so she told me that the only way i can get my wife back,is to visit a spell caster,because it has really worked for her too So i never believed in spell,but i had no other choice,than to follow her advice. Then she gave me the email address of the spell caster whom she visited.(bravelovespell@gmail.com}, So the next morning,i sent a mail to the address she gave to me,and the spell caster assured me that i will get my wife back the next day what an amazing statement!! I never believed,so he spoke with me,and told me everything that i need to do. Then the next morning, So surprisingly, my wife who did not call me for the past seven {7}months,gave me a call to inform me that she was coming back So Amazing!! So that was how she came back that same day,with lots of love and joy,and she apologized for her mistake,and for the pain she caused me and my children. Then from that day,our relationship was now stronger than how it were before,by the help of a spell caster . So, i will advice you out there to kindly visit the same web site: http://bravesp.blogspot.co.uk/,if you are in any condition like this,or you have any problem related to "bringing your ex back. So thanks to Dr Brave for bringing back my wife,and brought great joy to my family once again. { bravelovespell@gmail.com }, Thanks you Dr Brave, i will always be testifying about your good work.and for any questions call me {James Mack} on +393279282206.This spell is a 100% Guarantee for your situation.

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  70. Hello to everyone here, I'm here to share the unexpected miracles that happened to me three days ago how i was help by dr clement, My Name is sanjeeta I live in United State, and I `m happily married to a lovely and caring husband, two children, a very big problem has occurred in the family seven months ago, between me and my husband so terrible that they took the case to court for divorce, he said that he never again to stay with me, and urging me not as he made the house and grabbed me and my children are passed through a lot of pain. I have tried all my possible means to get him back, after much begging, but all to no avail, and he confirmed that he made ??his decision, and he never wanted me to see her again. So one evening when I returned from work, I met an old friend of mine who asked my husband So I explained everything to her,so she told me that the only way I can get my husband back it is, visit a spell caster, because it really worked for them too so I never believed in spell, but I had no choice but to follow their advice. Then they gave me the email address of the caster, they.drodeckuspellhome@gmail.com, so the next morning I sent an email to the address they gave me, and the spell caster assured me that I get my husband back the next day, what an astonishing statement, I have never believed, so that he spoke to me and told me everything I need to do. then the next morning, so suddenly, that my husband, who has not called me for the past {7} seven months, gave me a call to tell me that he come back So Amazing! So that was how he came back on the same day, with lots of love and joy, and they apologized for their mistake, and for the pain she has me and my children. then from that day, our relationship was stronger than now, as it were before, with the help of a spell caster. So, I'm going to visit to advise there please the same site drodeckuspellhome@gmail.com if you are in a state like this, or you have problems that bring on "your ex back. So many thanks to Dr. clement return for my husband and brought back
    great joy, my family.(drodeckuspellhome@gmail.com. Thank you you can contact him fore you own help

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  71. BE CAREFUL HERE NOBODY CAN HELP YOU HERE OR EVEN SUGGEST HOW YOU CAN GET YOUR EX OR LOVE BACK,ANY TESTIMONIES OF MOST SPELL CASTER HERE MUST BE IGNORE.BECAUSE MOST OF THEM ARE SCAM I MEAN REAL SCAM WHICH I WAS A VICTIM AND I GOT RIPPED OF THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS BECAUSE I WAS SO ANXIOUS TO GET MY WIFE BACK AFTER SHE LEFT ME FOR OVER 2 YEARS WITH MY 7 YEARS OLD SON JERRY,I HAVE APPLIED TO 7 DIFFERENT SPELL CASTER HERE AND ALL TO NO AVAIL THEY ALL ASK FOR SAME THING SEND YOUR NAME YOUR EX NAME DDRESS AND PICTURE PHONE NUMBER ETC WHICH I DID OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND MOST OF THEM WERE FROM WEST AFRICA UNTIL I SAW A POST ABOUT MAMA ANITA SPELL AND I DECIDED TO GAVE HER MY LAST TRAIL.SHE ASK ME FOUR THINGS MY REAL NAME,MY EX AND MY EX MOTHER NAME AND $380 AND SAID MY EX WILL COME BACK IN 24HOURS, I HAVE PAID OVER $3000 ON SPELL CASTING AND COURIER AND NOTHING HAVE WORK FOR ME AFTER 3 DAYS I WAS THINKING ABOUT HOW MUCH I HAVE LOST SO FAR SO I SAID LET ME GIVE HER A TRY SO I CALLED HER AGAIN AND SEND MY REAL NAME,MY EX AND MY EX MOTHER NAME AND THE $380 BECAUSE I SWEAR IT WAS MY LAST TRY SO I WAS WAITING AS SHE TOLD ME TO WAIT TILL NEXT DAY AND I COULD NOT SLEEP THAT NIGHT BECAUSE I REALLY LOVE MY WIFE AND WANT HER BACK AT 9PMTHAT DAY I SAW MY WIFE ON LINE ON FACE BOOK AND SHE SAID HI AT FIRST I WAS SHOCK BECAUSE SHE NEVER TALK WITH ME FOR THE PAST A YEAR AND 9 MONTH NOW I DID NOT REPLY AGAIN SHE SAID ARE YOU THERE? I QUICKLY REPLY YES AND SHE SAID CAN WE SEE TOMORROW I SAID YES AND SHE WENT OFF-LINE I WAS CONFUSED I TRY TO CHAT HER AGAIN BUT SHE WAS NO MORE ON LINE I COULD NOT SLEEP THAT NIGHT AS I WAS WONDERING WHAT SHE IS GOING TO SAY, BY 7.AM THE NEXT MORNING SHE GAVE ME A MISS CALL I DECIDED NOT TO CALL BACK AS I WAS STILL ON SHOCK AGAIN SHE CALL AND I PICK SHE SAID CAN WE SEE AFTER WORK TODAY I SAID YES SO SHE END THE CALL IMMEDIATELY I GOT OFF WORK SHE CALL ME AND WE MEET AND NOW WE ARE BACK AGAIN I CALL MAMA ANITA THE NEXT DAY THANKING HER FOR WHAT SHE HAS DONE IN FACT I STILL CALL HER AND THANK HER AS MY LIFE WAS NOT COMPLETE WITHOUT MY WIFE PLEASE BE CAREFUL HERE I HAVE BEEN SCAM THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS IF YOU WANT A TRUE LOVE SPELL THEN CONTACT MAMA ANITA (mamaanita.lovespellsolution@gmail.com) or mama.anitaspellcraft@hotmail.com website http://kelvinlargemyself.wix.com/anita

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  72. My Wife divorce me for no reason, Thanks to Dr Dr.jarto for bringing back my wife,and brought great joy to my family once again, My name is Marcus Williams. i live in Italy, I`m happily married to a lovely and caring wife,with two kids A very big problem occurred in my family seven months ago,between me and my wife so terrible that she took the case to court for a divorce she said that she never wanted to stay with me again,and that she did not love me anymore So she packed out of my house and made me and my children passed through severe pain. I tried all my possible means to get her back,after much begging,but all to no avail and she confirmed it that she has made her decision,and she never wanted to see me again. So on one evening,as i was coming back from work,i met an old friend of mine who asked of my wife So i explained every thing to her,so she told me that the only way i can get my wife back,is to visit a spell caster,because it has really worked for her too So i never believed in spell,but i had no other choice,than to follow her advice. Then she gave me the email address of the spell caster whom she visited.(Dr.jartospellcaster@gmail.com}, So the next morning,i sent a mail to the address she gave to me,and the spell caster assured me that i will get my wife back the next day what an amazing statement!! I never believed,so he spoke with me,and told me everything that i need to do. Then the next morning, So surprisingly, my wife who did not call me for the past seven {7}months,gave me a call to inform me that she was coming back So Amazing!! So that was how she came back that same day,with lots of love and joy,and she apologized for her mistake,and for the pain she caused me and my children. Then from that day,our relationship was now stronger than how it were before,by the help of a spell caster . So, i will advice you out there to kindly visit the same web site: http://Dr.jartosp.blogspot.co.uk/,if you are in any condition like this,or you have any problem related to "bringing your ex back. So thanks to Dr Dr.jarto for bringing back my wife,and brought great joy to my family once again. { Dr.jartospellcaster@gmail.com }, Thanks you Dr Dr.jarto, i will always be testifying about your good work.This spell is a 100% Guarantee for your situation.

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  73. I almost gave up trying to get my ex girlfriend back to commit to our relationship fully. I had tried the whole lot I knew, but what I DIDN'T know was that all I had to do was come to you Dr. Trust, and with your blessings and extraordinary magic powers, I wouldn't have to do all the work at all. you did your magic, and immediately after 48 hours, my girlfriend came back to me with lots of apologies and flowers.. And now my life is balanced and happy again. Dr. Trust is a real and genuine spell caster he help me restore back my broken relationship. You do a great service to people, You are talented with spell to bring back ex lover and many more. Thank you for weaving your magic love spells for me. She is back just the way it was when we first met, and we're coming up on our 2nd birthday now! Thank you so much sir, Lots of appreciations. email him for relationship help. Ultimatespellcast@gmaill.com or ultimatespellcast@yahoo.com check on him on his website http://ultimatespellcast8.wix.com/ultimatespellcast or call +2348156885231

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  74. I almost gave up trying to get my ex girlfriend back to commit to our relationship fully. I had tried the whole lot I knew, but what I DIDN'T know was that all I had to do was come to you Dr. Trust, and with your blessings and extraordinary magic powers, I wouldn't have to do all the work at all. you did your magic, and immediately after 48 hours, my girlfriend came back to me with lots of apologies and flowers.. And now my life is balanced and happy again. Dr. Trust is a real and genuine spell caster he help me restore back my broken relationship. You do a great service to people, You are talented with spell to bring back ex lover and many more. Thank you for weaving your magic love spells for me. She is back just the way it was when we first met, and we're coming up on our 2nd birthday now! Thank you so much sir, Lots of appreciations. email him for relationship help. Ultimatespellcast@gmaill.com or ultimatespellcast@yahoo.com check on him on his website http://ultimatespellcast8.wix.com/ultimatespellcast or call +2348156885231

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  75. I want the world to know a great man that is well known as Dr Miracle,he has the perfect solution to relationship issues and marriage problems. The main reason why i went to Dr Miracle was for solution on how i can get my husband back because in recent times i have read some testimonies on the internet which some people has written about Dr Miracle and i was so pleased and i decided to seek for assistance from him on his email (MIRACLESPELLHOME@YAHOO.COM) which he did a perfect job by casting a spell on my husband which made him to come back to me and beg for forgiveness.I will not stop publishing his name on the net because of the good work he is doing. I will drop his contact for the usefulness of those that needs his help.His Email Dr miracles"CONTACT via EMAIL:MIRACLESPELLHOME@YAHOO.COM You can contact him today and get your problem solved.Call +2348071398555.." or you can also contact him through his website http://miraclespellhome.wix.com/dr-miracles

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  76. I want the world to know a great man that is well known as Dr Miracle,he has the perfect solution to relationship issues and marriage problems. The main reason why i went to Dr Miracle was for solution on how i can get my husband back because in recent times i have read some testimonies on the internet which some people has written about Dr Miracle and i was so pleased and i decided to seek for assistance from him on his email (MIRACLESPELLHOME@YAHOO.COM) which he did a perfect job by casting a spell on my husband which made him to come back to me and beg for forgiveness.I will not stop publishing his name on the net because of the good work he is doing. I will drop his contact for the usefulness of those that needs his help.His Email Dr miracles"CONTACT via EMAIL:MIRACLESPELLHOME@YAHOO.COM You can contact him today and get your problem solved.Call +2348071398555.." or you can also contact him through his website http://miraclespellhome.wix.com/dr-miracles

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  77. I want the world to know a great man that is well known as Dr Miracle,he has the perfect solution to relationship issues and marriage problems. The main reason why i went to Dr Miracle was for solution on how i can get my husband back because in recent times i have read some testimonies on the internet which some people has written about Dr Miracle and i was so pleased and i decided to seek for assistance from him on his email (MIRACLESPELLHOME@YAHOO.COM) which he did a perfect job by casting a spell on my husband which made him to come back to me and beg for forgiveness.I will not stop publishing his name on the net because of the good work he is doing. I will drop his contact for the usefulness of those that needs his help.His Email Dr miracles"CONTACT via EMAIL:MIRACLESPELLHOME@YAHOO.COM You can contact him today and get your problem solved.Call +2348071398555.." or you can also contact him through his website http://miraclespellhome.wix.com/dr-miracles

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  78. I lost my 2 years relationship during August. My ex left me with so many pains and since then I have been heart broken and shattered. I have contact 11 spell casters and 8 of them has rip me off my money without any result. I have Emailed so many sites online looking for a good spell caster till I was directed by a 16 years old girl to grantingheartdesiresspell@gmail.com At first I never believed him because he was requesting for some amount of money to buy items, it took him three weeks to convince me and something occur to my mind and I said let me give him a trial. I was very shocked when Marcus called three days after I sent Dr GRANT the items money. He apologies for all he has done wrong and I am very happy that we are together today because he proposed to me last night. I will advise you contact Email grantingheartdesiresspell@gmail.com because he has done wonders in my life and I believe he can help you out in any problem.

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  79. Having my left ex lover back has been the greatest thing that has happened to me, i want to share my testimony of how the love of my life come back, i got my ex lover of my life back, am happy to tell the people in the world there is a real spell caster online and is powerful and genuine, His name is Dr.Ofemo spell caster, He helped me recently to reunite my relationship with my boyfriend who dumped me, When i contacted Dr Ofemo he cast a love spell for me and my boyfriend who said he doesn't have anything to do with me again called me and started begging me. To anyone who is reading this article and needs any help Dr Ofemo can also offer any types of help like Reuniting of marriage and relationship, Curing of all types of Diseases,HERPES CURE OR CANCER OR HIV&AIDS, Court Cases,Lottery winning, Pregnancy Spell, Spiritual protection and lot's more thanks once again wonderful man,email drofemospelltempl@gmail.com my life all i want to say is thank you to Dr Ofemo for helping me so if you are suffering and need a change of life i will advice you to contact them now at their via: drofemospelltemple@yahoo.com or his web/site: http://greatofemospelltemple.webs.com/ or cell number +2348163387496 his web/site http://drofemospelltemple.wix.com/dr-ofemo

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  80. Having my left ex lover back has been the greatest thing that has happened to me, i want to share my testimony of how the love of my life come back, i got my ex lover of my life back, am happy to tell the people in the world there is a real spell caster online and is powerful and genuine, His name is Dr.Ofemo spell caster, He helped me recently to reunite my relationship with my boyfriend who dumped me, When i contacted Dr Ofemo he cast a love spell for me and my boyfriend who said he doesn't have anything to do with me again called me and started begging me. To anyone who is reading this article and needs any help Dr Ofemo can also offer any types of help like Reuniting of marriage and relationship, Curing of all types of Diseases,HERPES CURE OR CANCER OR HIV&AIDS, Court Cases,Lottery winning, Pregnancy Spell, Spiritual protection and lot's more thanks once again wonderful man,email drofemospelltempl@gmail.com my life all i want to say is thank you to Dr Ofemo for helping me so if you are suffering and need a change of life i will advice you to contact them now at their via: drofemospelltemple@yahoo.com or his web/site: http://greatofemospelltemple.webs.com/ or cell number +2348163387496 his web/site http://drofemospelltemple.wix.com/dr-ofemo.

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  81. Everyone needs to know the great love spell caster Dr Ogudugu I can’t tell how long it took me to find a trust worthy spell caster like Dr Ogudugu online, I am a very satisfied and happy person today. i have used many spell caster but none of them could bring my man back but Dr Ogudugu did. After his spell was done, My lover moved in with me. I want anyone who want his or her lover back to choose Dr Ogudugu for help cuz he is the right choice to go with. His love spell was excellent. call him +2348057266712 or Email: GREATOGUDUGU@GMAIL.COM

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  82. My Name is Alan Pratte, From USA. I wish to share my testimonies with the general public about what this man called Dr OTIS DARKO has just done for me , this man has just brought back my lost Ex WIFE to me with his great spell, I was married to this woman called Sharon we were together for a long time and we loved our self’s but when I was unable to make her pregnant for me and also give her al she needs she left me and told me she can’t continue anymore then I was now looking for ways to get her back until a friend of mine told me about this man and gave his contact email: otisdarko60@yahoo.com then you won't believe this when I contacted this man on my problems he prepared this spell cast and bring my lost WIFE back, and after a month she became pregnant for me because he gave me some herbs to take also and when she went for a test and the result stated that she was pregnant am happy today am a FATHER of a baby girl, thank you once again the great DR OTIS DARKO for what you have done for me, if you are out there passing through any of this problems listed below:

    1) If you want your ex back.
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    (5) If you want a child/PREGNANCY SPELL.
    (6) You want to be rich.
    (7) You want to tie your husband/wife to be
    yours forever.
    (8) If you need financial assistance.
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    (14) HAVE YOU BEEN SCAMMED BEFORE AND NEEDS TO RECOVER ALL THE DOLLARS/MONEY YOU LOST TO THESE FRAUDSTER ???.. CONTACT OTIS DARKO AS HE HELPED MY FRIEND CALLED WILLIANSM FROM USA TO RECOVER BACK THE SUM OF $300,000.00 DOLLARS HE LOST TO SCAMMERS ONLINE

    Email... otisdarko60@yahoo.com...... YOU CAN ALSO ADD HIM UP ON WHATSAPP USING THIS MOBILE NUMBER:+2348077526136

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  83. This comment I Linda Phyliss is placing is not like the day by day advert you read online before!! Its a comment that you must read to avoid been ripped off and know the real spell caster on earth God sent to change and turn lives around without any harm / side effect.
    I am so over joyful as my month can not start to say all that really happened, It happened when i saw DR OTIS DARKO advert online talking about been the best when there are so many spell casters online that i have used that has failed me.I spent almost close to $8000 dollars online for those spell casters that ripped me off my money without any result. But when i saw DR OTIS DARKO advert online saying that there is no spell caster like him and so many other testimonies about him from various people and from various countries in the world were it was written that Otis spell temple is the best that there is non to be compared to his work, Already i have personally take a decision never to apply to any spell caster online again after loosing such amount of funds on line to those scammers.But i don't really know what drew my spirit / attention to that advert online that faithful afternoon, { I call it a faithful afternoon because all i desire was granted to me. } There was an email at the end of his advert and on the good comment from the FBI and various people about him, I decided to send him an email telling him my problem about my lost job, money that i have lost to scammers and also having problems with the love of my life that i want to get married to. After some few minutes i received an email from him that contain the spell application form that i filled out and he told me that to get my spell casted that i will have to get some items that i could not get here when i went in-search for it. He said if i can not get the items, That is going to cost me an amount of just $390 dollars for my kind of case that i told him about which i doubted to be another scam online, As i have read so many tips online that money should not be sent to someone you do not know via western union / money gram payment information's. And DR OTIS DARKO insisted that i will be sending money to his messenger via this wire means. I was so skeptical because i was scammed in such a way of $700 dollars before,But this same spirits that attracted me to his advert told me inside again that this spell caster is real and noting but real that i should go ahead and send him the amount since i know that there is no how i can get the items that he told me that will be needed for my case. I sent him the charges through his messenger to please help me get the item with the money to get my spell casted.He promised me that in the next 5 to 7 hours that i will start to see results after the spell has been casted to get the love of my life back and others. I could not believe this because i have really been scammed and ripped off too many times for me to just believe till it works. To be sincere i almost faint as i was filled with so much excitement and happiness when my lost lover for over almost 9 months call was entering my phone and i picked the call were he ask if we can see to take things over and also my boss called me to tell me to come for training on my terminated job also due to too many thinking that in the office that result to it. Then in the next 2 days the FBI called to tell me that they have been able to get the scammer that is with my money. I am so proud and happy to spread the good-news about this man because he surprised me in his wonderful and powerfully work that restored back to me my heart desires. One thing that i also loved about this man is that he is understandable and he reduce or negotiate how much you can get for the work you want him to help you with. You want to meet with this great,most powerful spell caster that is 100% scam free,Just send your emails to this email: otisdarko60@yahoo.com as you will get help from him without any disappointment....YOU CAN ALSO ADD HIM UP ON WHATSAPP USING THIS MOBILE NUMBER:+2348077526136

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  84. I want the world to know a great man that is well known as Dr Miracle,he has the perfect solution to relationship issues and marriage problems. The main reason why i went to Dr Miracle was for solution on how i can get my husband back because in recent times i have read some testimonies on the internet which some people has written about Dr Miracle and i was so pleased and i decided to seek for assistance from him on his email (MIRACLESPELLHOME@YAHOO.COM) which he did a perfect job by casting a spell on my husband which made him to come back to me and beg for forgiveness.I will not stop publishing his name on the net because of the good work he is doing. I will drop his contact for the usefulness of those that needs his help.His Email Dr miracles"CONTACT via EMAIL:MIRACLESPELLHOME@YAHOO.COM You can contact him today and get your problem solved.Call +2348071398555.." or you can also contact him through his website http://miraclespellhome.wix.com/dr-miracles,,,

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  85. My name is Rusty Kate, from UK I never believed in love spells or magic until i met this spell caster once. when i went to Africa in July this year on a business summit. i meet a man called Dr. Erigo.He is powerful he could help you cast a spells to bring back my love’s gone,misbehaving lover looking for some one to love you, bring back lost money and magic money spell or spell for a good job.i’m now happy & a living testimony cos the man i had wanted to marry left me 3 weeks before our wedding and my life was upside down cos our relationship has been on for 2 years… i really loved him, but his mother was against me and he had no good paying job. so when i met this spell caster, i told him what happened and explained the situation of things to him..at first i was undecided,skeptical and doubtful, but i just gave it a try. and in 6 days when i returned to New York, my boyfriend (is now my husband ) he called me by himself and came to me apologizing that everything had been settled with his mom and family and he got a new job interview so we should get married..i didn’t believe it cos the spell caster only asked for my name and my boyfriends name and all i wanted him to do… well we are happily married now and we are expecting our little kid,and my husband also got a new job and our lives became much better. in case anyone needs the spell caster for some help, email;Erigospellcaster@gmail.com you can see what he can do and i believe that he can help you,
    OR you can get more information from me on my Email: blissmichellelorraine@hotmail.com

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  86. I have something to share with you!!! There is a great joy in my heart which I want to share with everyone. My name is Ella. I had a misunderstanding with my lover a few years ago; which led to us to break up and he never wanted to hear my voice again. He saw a beautiful love more prettier than myself, but as time went on I met Doctor ogbo. He is a great spell caster (medicine man ). I contacted him through his email and explained everything to him. He said that I shouldn't worry, that my lover will come back to me on his knees begging for forgiveness. I bought an item that he told me to buy for the preparation of the spell. After everything was prepared he told me that my lover will come to me with 24 hours begging. My greatest joy now is that he actually came back to me and fell on his knees begging for forgiveness, and today we are happy. Do you have any problem with your loved one? Do not know what to do? Well worry no more because Doctor ogbo can provide you with a spell to get him or her back. With the help of a spell just as he helped me. Contact Doctor ogbo today via email for your spell: drogbospellhome1500@gmail.com

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  87. Am very happy to tell everyone about the greatest spell caster of all time Dr Henry of PERMANENT SPELL CAST. I lost contacts with my Husband few months after we broke due to some quarrels we had, i searched for him for reconciliation, but all my efforts was lost and i turned hopeless until i came in contact with Dr Henry, who helped me with his voodoo spell to locate where my husband was and also helped me cast a love spell on him.
    The Dr told me that my Husband will come back to me after 4 days of the spell, and i was so surprised that it all happened as the Dr said it will, my husband came back to me for a reunion after 4 days of the spell. Now am very happy with my family, and my husband has loved me more than ever, since the spell was cast on him by Dr Henry.
    You can also get help from this Great Dr on
    Permanentspellcast@gmail.com or on Whatssapp +2348100663964
    Permanentspellcast@yahoo.com
    permanentspellcast@hotmail.com

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  88. My deepest secret turned against me after my husband discovered I was seeing my boss. Though it’s a shameful act, but I was afraid my boss would fire me if I resist. I really wanted to stay in the job because my husband was not working and my boss increased my pay because of our secret affairs. I thought I was doing our family good, until my husband found out through my colleague, he was broken at that moment and vowed never to see me again. My senses came back, I quitted the job, I was ashamed of myself, I became suicidal, and I started doing drugs in order to forget my past.
    Few days after the divorce papers were served, I email Dr. aluda via aludaspelltemple@gmail.com After reading some overwhelming reviews about his bring lover back spell, I explained everything to him and pleaded to make me change, to adore only my husband and make my husband forgive and forget every evil I have done to him and forget about divorce. It took Dr aluda two days to cast the spell, my husband came back five days after the spell. I couldn’t believe my eyes, he totally forgave me and agreed to start afresh with me, he then appreciated Dr aluda for his help and promised not to divorce. I am so happy for our new beginning, we have a new job and a new apartment. For over seven months, things has been working. I was blessed since the day I found Dr. aluda email: aludaspelltemple@gmail.com
    call or whatsapp him on +2348063930531
    Victoria Noel
    From UK

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