Monday, May 16, 2011

Messy Bed, Messy Head

I cleaned.

And I don't just mean tidied up - I purged; a throw-open-the-windows-get-down-on-your-hands-and-knees scrubbing.

I tackled my house - and my mind - with a vigor I haven't felt in a long time, sweeping away cobwebs of stagnation and infusing my creative space with a energy and light.

As my recent posts reflect, I've been feeling creatively and existentially stuck lately.   I woke up Sunday morning early to work on orders, and as I walked into my studio I felt a heaviness, a kind of dread, as I sat down at my work station.   Every inch of my desk was covered in detritus; beads, little snips of wire, discarded scrap metal, and it hit me:  messy bed, messy head.

My counselors in rehab used to chirp this at us bright and early each morning; we were required to make our beds and tidy up our room every day before morning meditation.  I grumbled about it every morning, failing to see what was so important about this menial chore.

Yesterday, it all tumbled into place:  my studio was a physical manifestation of my mental clutter, my stuckness.

It took me five hours, but I cleared every surface.  I scrubbed and organized and gutted out every drawer, every dark corner full of junk.   I rearranged my entire space, pushing my work table up against a window and separating my office space from my creative space. 

When it was done, I rubbed my aching back and stood back to admire my work.  I felt a quickening in my pulse, an eagerness to get to work.   I'll be damned, I thought.   It worked.













Next I tacked my in-home store (read: converted dining room).  I separated the store space from the studio space, moved in a comfy chair and organized all my jewelry displays.






Without any before pictures, it's hard to get a sense of the light and space this purging created, but it's much better.    I used to kind of dread when people would stop by to shop; my work station was always cluttered and messy, and there were no places to sit and chat.  I have more plans for this space, down the road: a coffee station, pretty display cases, a nook with a set-up to teach classes.   Now I can actually feel how this will be possible, some day.

I woke up this morning refueled, recharged and totally inspired.   I spent a few minutes just sitting in my studio, sipping coffee and dreaming.   With a big smile on my face.

I'm back.

6 comments:

  1. Yeah! Whenever I feel overwhelmed, I do the same in my house. Purge the desk. Scrub the counters. Make all of th ebeds with fresh sheets. It works wonders for me as well.

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  2. Beautiful! Now that looks like a space I'd want to enter.

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  3. It looks all organized and beautiful (and I love the glass art piece with the flowers and butterfly) I would definitely want to sit there with a cup of coffee and talk some jewelry!

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  4. My favorite thing about cleaning isn't even the result. It's the fact that I can do something productive instead of just spinning my mental wheels faster and faster. Those mental wheels are the source of so many problems for me, and having a method to interrupt them that's actually positive might just be my personal definition of happiness.

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  5. I want to shop now!!

    And of course I totally get this--especially since I'm in crazy-nesting mode :)

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  6. Gillian in WalesMay 17, 2011 at 8:39 AM

    You know, I was thinking about posting a link to a site I have just started using. And then I thought, hey, she might think I'm crazy. And, 'who am I to suggest *cleaning* to anyone.' 'Maybe she'll be offended.'

    Damn it, I should have! It obviously *wasn't* a thought just from me...

    Anyway, I have just found and started to use http://www.flylady.net/ She has a list of Baby Beginner Steps and the very first one is 'Go shine your sink.' So I went and shined the sink. Bleach, scrub, polish, go round the edges with a blade, etc etc. And I have KEPT it shiny. A quick swipe every night before I go to bed.

    So what? Well, in order to shine the sink, it has to be empty, and the dishes on the drainer put away. And there's no point in shining a sink where there are dishes waiting to be washed, so they get done, too. And a wipe down the side because the sink is so pretty. So I put the ingredients away to be able to reach the side. It cascades.

    But the best thing is the way that it makes me feel. A smile of satisfaction every night, for just 2 and a half minutes work. I know it takes that long because I do it while microwaving my wheat bag for bed. And then a glow of shiny happiness every morning.

    I highly recommend FLYlady and her beginner baby steps. Especially her idea of de-cluttering for 15 minutes at a time.

    So anyone looking at what Ellie has achieved and looking at their own clutter and mess, and thinking, "But it'll take HOURS and I don't HAVE hours." go look at FLYlady and see what she recommends.

    And, no, I don't get paid to say it, and yes it is all free!

    It is making such a difference to me as I clear out more and more STUFF, and get our hosue looking more like a home I would want to spend time in - so I completely understand and congratulate you on recognising and doing something about it, Ellie. Your new space looks LOVELY. Now to create something as nice in MY home...

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